my new life

Independent

2011-09-20T22:25:00.003+08:00

20/09/2011

am i dependent? or am i not?

well, last time i admit i am dependent.

everything "daddy" here "daddy" there,

but now, i've grown up alot.

most of the times, i do things my own.

i dont ask for helps if i am able to.

although i might looks like i am still very dependent person,

well, u wont believe what have i done all this while, alone.

yea, maybe to others this is normal, but for me, i am a guy that never leaves his footstep alone out from his family.

my first time take flight, i was alone. i dono where to go and what should i do, i made some stupid questions to strangers, but i did it, on my own.

i travel ups and down to almost every part in malaysia, alone.

i even drive back to KL from my uni, alone.

i eat, i sleep, i play, i walk, i dance, i live, all by myself.

i didn't complaint.

i do things never ask for companion if i am able.

what else should i do to prove that i am independent?

Perhaps, i should go travel to another country, Alone i guess.

tonight there's a zero fare. i guess i wana go a place, where can find my inner peace. out from others... although, i do admit, i wan to go with my loves one... i like to travel with my loves one... but i guess i am not going to have the permit to do so yet...

Hm.... decision... might be going to Bali alone i guess. ^^

will see how tonight. ^^

Well, i am just not good enough.

2011-09-03T20:56:00.004+08:00

03/09/2011

Been working for a month in PB, and i already started to feel the pressure... no one knows what i faced and how they expect on me... the more expectation, the more pressure i get... i am new here, please don't push me to hard, u, u, u and u will just made me suffocate...

I am being lecture in the office, being lecture in my home, and i don't need anymore lecture from others already... i had enough... i don't need anymore nagging...

And one more very particular things i really care about, which is TRUST. Once the trust is gone, i will be gone too. All this while for 23 years, i never gain any trust from anyone.Its like my shadow that will not leave me even a second, DOUBT is my curse i guess. Its not like i am giving up easily, i am still trying... trying very hard... but in this month... i guess i lost my faith in myself... thats why i broke ppl's heart.. i cant take it anymore... i need a break.

U can said anything u wan, i am weak, i am sucks in relationship, i dun deserve anyone and what-so-ever. Yea, maybe u are right, why don't u think of why i will treat u like that? Well, some-others cant really see their wrong side, they will always win. i don't blame them, everyone have their flaws...

ARG!!!! WHATEVER LA!! LIFE SHOULDN'T BE THIS SORROW! LIFE GOES ON!!

GET OVER IT AND SCREW THE PAST!

focus with my works, need to learn more, i got a great job, and a great position.i am grateful for that, thanks to u my dear god, i should not complaint anymore. Any to nurse a grievance, just suck it up and swallow it and digest it and fart it, everything will be fine again.

GAMBATEH!!

歌手：
田馥甄

專輯： My Love

歌名：
還是要幸福

不確定就別親吻

感情很容易毀了一個人

一個人若不夠狠

愛淡了不離不棄多殘忍

你留下來的垃圾

我一天一天總會丟完的

我甚至真心真意的祝福

永恆在你的身上先發生

你還是要幸福

你千萬不要再招惹別人哭

所有錯誤從我這裏落幕

別跟著我

銘心刻骨

你還是要幸福

我才能確定我還得很清楚

確定自己再也不會佔據

你的篇幅

明天開始

這一切都結束還我鑰匙的備份

我覺得再見可以很單純

我甚至真心真意的祝福

永恆在你的身上先發生

你還是要幸福

你千萬不要再招惹別人哭

所有錯誤從我這裏落幕

別跟著我

銘心刻骨

你還是要幸福

我才能確定我還得很清楚

確定自己再也不會佔據

你的篇幅

明天開始

這一切都結束

你還是要幸福

你千萬不要再招惹別人哭

所有錯誤從我這裏落幕

別跟著我

銘心刻骨

你如果很幸福

半夜的簡訊我就無需回覆

因為你的悲喜已經有了容身之處

我也能有最純粹的孤獨

最孤獨的孤獨

Love u Hebe~

AUG: working life START!

2011-08-07T11:53:00.003+08:00

07/08/2011

my working life started since 1st of AUG....

many things to learnt and memorize!!! i hope i can catch up fast enough to impress my senior and my managers... sob sob*

luckily i have a great senior and colleague that helps me alot. thank god for treating me so good. i will work harder and earn more for me and my family lor! EMM!

6 months to go and i will be promote! cant wait for it! hehe.

July the brand nouveau départ

2011-07-14T21:23:00.002+08:00

Halo my beloved Blog~~ its been awhile i abandoned u~ i am so sorry~~ i came back to visit u again now baby~

Lots of things happened in this few months, good and bad all comes in together. Well, this is life, face it bitch(me)! Ups and down only will paint ur life with various of colors~

First,

i am graduated, like finally! OMG. i passed with flying colors this last semester! HELLO! i get DEAN list man!! In this freaking hardest last semester!! Not much ppl actually get dean list in the last semester and i get it!!! i am so happy!! (i tout i might be failed after i done my exam). Now i only wish that i can wait my Convocation and get my cert smoothly~~ i wana have a very big size DOMOKUN!!! Cant wait for it!! XD

Second,

although i am graduated.... but i am still jobless.... until now!!! i have been a rotten guy that sit in front of the lappie for month than a month lor!!! Others were like work for one month dy... and i am still here, blogging.... its not that i cant get any job offer, i rejected 3 job offers!!! Even Public bank i rejected!! OMG.... too arrogant?? nah... i prefer Kuantan job... so i can at least be with my two old dearest one here which is my dad and my mum for a while first.... haiz... fast fast give me a job offer la god~~ i wan start work lor~~ i dont want to slack around like a useless person...

hopefully i can get some calls TMR!!! *finger cross*

Third,

a really heart ache news for us last two weeks... my uncle just passed away... its a very very heart breaking news for all of us... especially my grandparents.... i saw them cried so hard... my heart scattered around... i never seen them crying before... and my mum, its been a long time my mum never cried in such a pain... she is a woman that i really look up to... she is a really strong woman... a woman that happy go lucky (sometimes when the mood come in angst, beware to take cover ya, must wear a protection!!) but that day, she cried, i cant do anything but to hug her tightly, and my dad too. Haiz.... life is unpredictable... but its kind of relieved cuz at least my uncle doesn't have to suffer from the pain anymore... hopefully he will have a peaceful and full of joy on the other side. we always love u.

After that, i guessed that my grandpa too exhausted, and caused him fainted last week... which is a shocked news for all of us again... i am really worried for my grandma... i love them so much.... i stayed with them when i was small... for so many years... they are precious for me... i really hopes that my grandparents will recover soon... grandpa!! get well soon!!! God pls let them recover soon!! T___T

Fourth,

since i am not working yet... so i joined PIKOM pc fair 2011 and be the team leader. Its a really good experience. i learn alot and i had lots of fun. i stayed alone that few days because my parents went to KT to visit my grandparents.

Fifth,

hello!! my braces are gone!!! i removed it dy!!! my and wan yi finally removed it dy!!! WUHU!!! celebration!! but we still have to wear the retainers for years to come. HAIZ.... But hey! i have a brand new gorgeous teeth to show my charming smile! (such a thick face that never feel shamed! u are ugly bitch!T___T).

Sixth,

finger cross u bird, Bird! Thanks for coming down to me from heaven, i will appreciate it alot! i wont ever waste what God send to me, which is u Bird! i will precious u like the best u ever had!

Guys, SERIOUSLY, appreciate every single second, stop complaining and enjoy the view of this world before its too late! (although nowadays the world become uglier la...but there still have some nice exquisite view out there!) carpe diem mate~~

thats all for now~~

Dear July, i wish it will a good start for me into brand new (working) world ya!!! Ciao~

Half

2011-05-16T00:31:00.003+08:00

Omg.... i am really becoming the actor in the song of Della 叮当--一半 (half)...

The whole song is just writing everything about my thought and my feeling!!

It is a Law of Attraction cuz i always listen to this song...

Its a really hurtful and full of loneliness feeling inside it...

really a heart sore song ever...

am i too pessimistic?

or am i thinking too much?

Well, i am Pisces, a full of emotional and thought sign.

i can be tough in front of everyone, but deep inside, i am weaker than anyone...

i need water to survive to swim suavely,

i am drying up now...

struggling on the land of dried and loneliness,

luckily i still have guts and determination to crawl and hope to find a pond of water that suits me...

well, pisces, its about two fish right?

now its only left one,

for sure everything will be in a dull way,

everything is in grey,

is very sorrow and gloomy world it lives in...

thats y this song appeared to be the most suitable song for a single Pisces.

丁噹《一半》

喝酒的伴(drinking companion)
一起看电影的伴(movies companion)
早午晚餐的那个伴(breakfast,lunch, dinner's companion)
朋友不能留得太晚(friends cant stay up too late)
明天要上班(cuz tmr still need to go for work)
唱k的伴(k session companion)
一起去旅行的伴(travel's companion)
听懂我的笑话的伴(the one that can understand my lame jokes)
我的生活(my life)
只差那个人就美满(left the person to fill in and it would it perfect)
快乐剩一人分享(happiness that no one to share)
快乐就只剩一半(happiness left half)
喝一碗汤(drink a bowl of soup)
心怎么都不够暖(heart still cant be warmed up)
这张被单这张睡床(this mattress, this bed)
再舒服都觉得太宽(how comfortable will also feel too big)
噢噢~~
没人分享(no ones to share with)
幸福就只剩一半(happiness will only left half)
就算把日子都填满(no matter how pack my daily schedule is)

节日却提醒我孤单(those festivals will just reminds me that i am lonely)

没有想法(no thought)
有想法又能怎样(so what if i have thought?)
只能写部落格整晚(end up blogging whole night... [like what i did now!!! >.<]...)

几个留言安慰不了(few messages wont help anything)
心里的遗憾(the regretfulness inside the heart.)
没有负担原来也是种负担(no burden also consider as a burden)
自由多得让人心慌(because too much freedom makes us feel frightened.)
你羡慕我(u envy of my life)
那要不要跟我交换(then would u like to exchange with me?)

快乐剩一人分享(happiness that no one to share)
快乐就只剩一半(happiness left half)
喝一碗汤(drink a bowl of soup)
心怎么都不够暖(heart still cant be warmed up)
这张被单这张睡床(this mattress, this bed)
再舒服都觉得太宽(how comfortable will also feel too big)
噢噢~~
没人分享(no ones to share with)
幸福就只剩一半(happiness will only left half)

努力把日子都填满(no matter how pack my daily schedule is)
别来提醒我的孤单(dun come and reminds me, how lonely i am)

快乐剩一人分享(happiness that no one to share)
快乐就只剩一半(happiness left half)
喝一碗汤(drink a bowl of soup)
心怎么都不够暖(heart still cant be warmed up)

这张被单这张睡床(this mattress, this bed)
再舒服都觉得太宽(how comfortable will also feel too big)
噢噢~~
没人分享(no ones to share with)
幸福就只剩一半(happiness will only left half)

就算把日子都填满(no matter how pack my daily schedule is)
没人知道我多孤单(no ones know, how lonely i am)

well this song is full of emotion,

all i wish to all those singles out there is that,

stay strong! one day u will surely find someone that suits u!

dun have to be rush, cuz love dun come by rush and force!

dun give up just yet! have faith on love! good luck everyone!!

i am also waiting for my right one!! lets together pray to get a good companion la!! good luck to me too! haha

its late now, its time to say goodbye lor! ciao~~

Is time to move on!

2011-05-15T02:32:00.002+08:00

Ppl were born to this universe,

Ppl will grow along with the environment,

Ppl will learned from the mistakes,

Ppl will change from what they learned,

Ppl will regret with what they've done,

Ppl will look back when they are old,

Ppl will "fly" to other universe when its time.

Well, this is life, human life cycle, ppl will never be the same always...

Since we know that, why we still want to invest our everything on other Ppl?

Ppl is the most insecure stuff that need the most expensive insurance to insure, but i think even the insurance hardly make us feel secure no matter how much u invest on it...

Even ourself, is hardly believe sometimes...

But from all the alternatives,

We, ourself, is the still the best to believed in.

Ntg is perfect,

Even u get 100% marks for exam, u still cant make ur parents feel enough.

Get used to it, faced it, be prepared for it,

Life is cruel, but Ppl are way more cruel,

Ppl wont be with us for the entire life,

Yes, we need them, but we need ourself more to survive, to live,

We live for no one but us.

Let the by gone be by gone.

Its time to let go and leave the past behind,

Store it in a box, put it aside, once in a while go check it wont harm anything,

Cuz its part of our story.

So its time to get ur ass off and MOVE ON,

Dont just live in the memories, hanging ourselves there.

U will missed alot of beautiful scene around u.

Well, its time to move on,

Going to hit my bed now,

And start my new day tmr with full of excitement!

(hope that MY NEW DREAM will be with me forever and will come true soon~)

NIGHTS MATE!!

CHEERS!!

Orz Orz!!

2011-05-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

RAWR!!!!

finally i dropped a super heavy rock on me!!!

International Finance that killed me drastically since the beginning of the new year, the most crazy subject i ever had in my entire life!! and now i cast "u" be gone with the wind~~

although i dont think i done it perfectly, but at least i done my best la~~~

THX to YOU!!! u know who u are~ always gives me the strength and motivate me although always at the last minute la~~ but still gives me the power to sprint!! thank you~~

suddenly so into my WIFE's song, avril~~~

wish u were here~ lets rock avril!!!

I can be tough,
I can be strong,
But with you, It's not like that at all,

Theres a guy who gives a shit,
Behind this wall,
You just walk through it,

And I remember all those crazy thing you said,
You left them running through my head,
You're always there, you're everywhere,
But right now I wish you were here,

All those crazy things we did,
Didn't think about it just went with it,
You're always there, you're everywhere,
But right now I wish you were here,

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are,
It's who I am don't have to try hard,
We always say, Say like it is,
And the truth is that I really miss,

All those crazy thing you said,
You left them running through my head,
You're always there, you're everywhere,
But right now I wish you were here,

All those crazy things we did,
Didn't think about it just went with it,
You're always there, you're everywhere,
But right now I wish you were here,

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you,
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here,

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you,
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

No, I don't wanna let go,
I just wanna let you know,
That I never wanna let go,
Let go, Oh, Oh,

No, I don't wanna let go,
I just wanna let you know,
That I never wanna let go,
Let go, Let go, Let go...

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you,
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here,

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you,
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

HOW I WISH U WERE HERE BY MY SIDE!!! >.<

nah~~ i just shouting to the wall in my room on my own~~ haha.

dead on my feet

2011-05-11T20:05:00.002+08:00

my mental and my spirit was dead on my feet after being questioning bout my words my trueness all this while... been cleaning and proving myself that i am just being honest and sincere with what i said... but it always bounce back to me with a shadow of doubting on me by the others... my big blue sky i used to have last time, being polluted by those nasty ugly rumors... i always try my best to give my all, but still i cant get my loves one trust on me... what can i do? dun trust me because i have a flirtatious look? dun judge by looking on the covers right?

been struggling for long time to dig my family trust on me... until now they still doubting on my ability and me myself... they hardly believe me.. what i do what i said will never bring any confidence to them... now i thought i can have my love one to believe me... i really hope that i can have someone to trust me... i am not going to stop my feet now... i will still try my best to prove that i am worth to trust... until the day i die i will still prove myself that i am not as useless as u guys thought i am... one day, there will be beyond the shadow of a doubt on me anymore!

although i am already dead on my feet... but others will just look down on me if i walk away like that. Trust me!!! i will show u one day and it will be sooner than u ever thought!!! cheers!!!

Nobody's Perfect

2011-05-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

yea... i made mistakes, everyone made mistakes, is a part of growing up in our life.

it doesnt mean end of the world right? we deserved 2nd chance right? dont we? cant we have that chance to prove ourself that we learned the lesson and we trying to change it?

Nobody's perfect...

i might be cheating, i might be playing around, i might be hurting u, but i am still in learning progress back then... everyone being stupid before... we cant do things correctly unless we made stupid mistakes before... i've changed... i've grown... all i need is a chance to prove myself... i am not what i am before...

theres a song really suits me... Jessie J = Nobody's Perfect

When I'm nervous I have this thing yeah I talk too much
Sometimes I just can't shut the hell up
It's like I need to tell someone anyone who'll listen
And that's where I seem to fuck up, yeah
I forget about the consequences, for a minute there I lose my senses
And in the heat of the moment my mouth's starts going the words start flowing

But I never meant to hurt you, I know it's time that i learnt to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learnt , I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah
And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
Cause nobody's perfect, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobodys perfect

If i could turn back the hands of time
I swear I never would have crossed that line
I should of kept it between us but Jessie went and told the whole world how she's feeling and oh
So I sit and I realise with these tears falling from my eyes
I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever
Promise that I'm gonna try

But I never meant to hurt you, i know it's time that i learn to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learnt and I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah
And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
Cause nobody's perfect, no, no, no, no, no, no, no,nobody's perfect

Im Not a saint no not at all, but what I did it wasn't cool
But I swear that I'll never do that again to you
I'm not a saint, no not at all, but what I did it wasn't cool
but i swear that ill never do that again to you.
I hate that I let you down, and I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah
And I hate that I made you think that that the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
Cause nobody's perfect, no,
nobody's perfect...

THE LAST CHAPTER AS A STUDENT

2011-04-27T21:05:00.012+08:00

its been a while.... cant believe is almost comes to an end dy... left one last month, and i am going to actually leave this jungle that teach me, trained me, guided me for this 3 years... tears are flowing in my eyes when think back last time, first time step into this jungle... i always thinks that "why am i end up in this hell?" and now... i actually feels hate to part with... i miss the friends here, i miss the place i grown here, i miss the route i always walk to class, i miss the canteen we gathered and gossip together, i miss the lecture room that makes us crazy together, i miss the smile, the laughter, we made for each other... we been through all this challenges together for 3 years, there always a up and down situation, angry, happy, sad, hate, envy, proud, we had it all together here...

when think about we are going to leave here, leave everyone soon... its our last chapter of here... the very last chapter as a student... the very last chapter to gather together with all frens for lunch dinner supper... everyone are going to leave soon... to write their own story... to build their own life... to build their own family... we going to separate soon... we are going to face the real world outside there by ourself... everything will be gone to zero...

life passed us by so fast, and u cant even realize how fast we been thru, how long our journey together... how crazy we been together... i wish i can grab it back and hold it tight once again...

well... i guess this is life... our job as a fulltime student already comes to an end... is time to change our thought as a worker, as an entrepreneur... if theres a chance, i would like to gather all of them, and have a great gathering together... i hope theres a chance for me to do so...

*wipe my tears and put a smile on my face* i will miss u all! =)

my dancing crew and others....

my course mate....

my kuantan mates....

my crazy mates~~

my dance crew

my class mate....

my first sem COMM II group mate...

my hiao mate 2.....

my jimui them....

theres alot more frens here... but i dun have the chance to takes photos with them... hopefully we can meet up again next time in the future... or maybe when the convocation period...

THANK YOU!!!!

THANKS FOR ACCOMPANY ME FOR THIS 3 YEARS!!

THANKS FOR GROWING ME UP!!!

THANKS FOR TOLERATING WITH MY CRAZINESS!!

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!!

my Duo performance with ah hsienz~

2011-03-29T12:29:00.004+08:00

25/03/2011

a very short notice performance~~~ friday is the performance and i only being informed on monday... zzz... it was such a rush preparation to be made~

me and ah hsienz decided to take some choreograph and practice in these 2 days.( i am having 2 exams in this week!!!) and finally we decided to take Clap+What's My Name+Push+Purple Line combine in one song~~

(2 days of practices...)

Friday,

is the day, my stomach full with MORPH not BUTTERFLIES.. LOL... makes me nerve cracking! i am very scared without any full preparation... makes me feel insecure...

*dong DONG dong DONG* my heartbeats like a big hard bass drum...

*poof* DONE~

overall... i think i did my best, and came out not bad the result~~ haha! hope the audience loved it lor~~~

23th birthday!

2011-03-20T12:48:00.017+08:00

12/03/2011 00.00am

Yes, i am officially 23 years born in this roller-coaster world. its been up and down and turn and twist and rolling and so on for 23 years! Old jor la~~~ see all my wrinkles so obvious on my forehead~~ hope i am still attractive to attract some bees towards me la~~ haha! XD

many celebration for me this year, i am so touch to be born with so much nice friends around me, thank you!! hugs !! although this year present is way much lesser than last year la~~ but everything they done for me is so meaningful for me which cant be bought with notes, and left a sweet memories in my heart never gone!

1st section,

11/03/2011

took the bus on 10th night, arrived KL at 11th morning, my packed schedule will be start soon~ here we go! have a short breakie with C and then 2nd breakie with my bro afte

r he fetch me at LRT station, which makes me waited him fo

r more than half hour! >.<''' and then went back home get some rest in da new house!! nice one!! XD after that went to One U to have a lunch at Robot Sushi and wandering around there alone, and bumps up with a fren Jason, we have a chat, i mean quite long one~ until my Ji Mui them reached One U. thx alot for Karen (the sick girl, pity her...), Siew Wee, and Col Yee came to One U which is so damn far from ur place just to celebrate for me! Gam Dong!!! T___T

Went for a K session at Neway, took lots of photos and ate lots of junk foods~ i am getting fatter!!! >.<

after that we went to Sunway Giza to have our dinner~ at FullHouse~~ so many ppl on that day!!! but nvm~~ more lively and more cheerful ma~~ haha~~ a simple dinner with lots of joys and sweet memoirs across my heart.

my birthday cake~~ nice nice~~

top, from left: Col yee, Siew Wee

btm, from left: Karen, Me

after that we went to Old Town at Central point to have a drink before we all heading back to our own home~ sweet sweet and warmth celebration i had on that night!!

section 2:

on the 12/03/2011, i went back to Kuantan with my Bro, went back to visit my parents~~ cant wait to meet them! miss them so much!! and i miss my bed too!!! XD

when i reached home, i can feel that my parents are actually very happy to see us. yea, i should come back often once i have times. i said it and i will do it! erm! on that night, we went to many restaurant but all fullhouse, so at last we went to E&E to have a family dinner~~ i am happy with it~~ hehe! i love my family!

section 3:

on the same night, vivy them ask me to have a yc session with them~~ another cake session begins!! ^^ we went to Santai to have a drinks there, and they brought me a peanut cake! a mouth watering cake!! nice one!!! thx ya~ they present me a T-shirt that wrote, "I AM NOT MONKEY, BUT I LOVE BANANAS" which is so suit me!!! cuz i loved BANANAS! XD. thx vivy for so know me!! hugs~~

from left: vivy, me, ping

section 4:

13/03/2011 that night i went for a yc session with wilson at old town~ another cake he present me!! lolx~~we have a long chat about the "seafood" around KUANTAN area~ haha~

section 5:

14/03/2011 i went back to KL, on the way back raining heavily again~~~ Hmph!! C makes me wait for 20 minutes again lor!! Hmph!! we went to eat at a place which their dishes is quite nice geh~~ thx for bringing me there~ hehe! after that, another surprise cake came out for me again! haha! thank u thank u~~~ and thx for the present ya!!! i am sure it takes long time to made it!! arigatou gozaimasu! hehe!

section 6:

15/03/2011 finally i have chance to YC with the super busy Prime minister mr Calvin at Paparich. haha~~ he treated me that night as a birthday present wo~~ the whole night was just listening to his story wo~ its the best time to catch up with his interesting story~ and he promise me to bring me to Italianese for desserts! hehe

section 7:

18/03/2011 back to UUM, and today is the day we planned to go have a gathering at DANOK Thailand for a dinner. but in the morning another group of my fren, Vchin them brought me to Jitra for a lunch at PizzaHut, its been a long time din catch up with them~~ thanks for treat me lunch ya! and then we went to Guardian to mess around once again~ used their tester, tried this and that, we end up buy ntg from there, ops! we bought a pack of tissue cost rm1. XD after that we went to Alor Setar for a K session~~ we only sang for an hour plus, i am so sorry to them cuz i cant stay long as i have another gathering needs to be attend. i am so thankful and sorry once again for rushing the plan... T___T

Ok, ready to get mumbling by the other group... which is my bestie.... WAN YI, SHU ZHEN them... ready to get scold by them.... haiz~~ we went to a place name Waterview Restaurant at Danok!! the place is so nice~~ the scenery, the view, the environment, its a very relax and romantic place to dine in. its so funny when it comes to communicate with the locals there, its like a duck talking to a chicken. haha! at last we ordered many dishes, the dishes is ok, but the amount is totally.... OMG... i should have record down the scene where everyone grabbing the food! once again it happened, like when we went to dinner at the Springfest! so funny~~ after that, a surprise cake once again~~ a cake from Thailand!! first time in my life celebrating my birthday aboard! i am very surprised and so happy, although i dono what it wrote on the cake la~~ hahaha!!! (not very nice only) but i appreciated it!!! hugs~~~

Shandy with Vchin them~~

the view of Waterview Restaurant~

the girls~~ from front: Sue Ann, Shu Zhen, Yee Kuan, Wan Yi, 408~

the guys, from left: Me, Ryan, Jia Jun, Sheng Yee, YY

My first Cake From Thailand~

i dono what it wrote on it. XD

me with the cake~~ wuhu~~

Thx everyone!!! hugs!!

this is it~ my 23th birthday celebration from all my family and frens~ i love them all!!! thanks once again!!! hehe~~ and thanks to those who wished me and present me!!! i loved it!! i love u guys~~ and i hope that my wish will fulfill soon! (i wish for Japan that can recover ASAP, and may all the victims rest in peace on the other side... god bless u all... ) Cheers for everyone out there, be grateful. ^^

my last springfest in UUM

2011-02-26T13:00:00.005+08:00

25/02/2011

a tiring day after a long trip to penang yesterday with my sar po, wan yi. a very looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong story telling with her, very tiring but it was a fun trip with her, as usual~ we spend our whole day mostly hangin around the gurney mall... and i am her maid that accompany her walk here and there... i wish to shop and my hands are itchy!!!! but.... i need to be live like a normal life guy this time.... control my shopaholic side of me!!! =(

all the stuff are so drooling.... arg~~~ when only i can shop without looking at the price tag neh.... wuwu...

and today... is the last time i can possibly attend the event which held in campus... the MPP SPRINGFEST in UUM... so much memoirs will be stayed here and i will bury it under the stage there... i will missed it alot... although the event always left me with 40% satisfaction only la~ but its from the committees hardwork and the passion they put in it, appreciate it.(cuz i am one of it the previous event leader. XD) that night our theme is black and white( i tout wana be a colourful and very eyesore colours geh... but... nvm la~~) we went there earlier to take photos~~ a simple but funny photoshoot. took lots of pictures! but feels like its not enough... maybe i am starting to miss them already... sob sob... the event was okay... my main point of joining this event is just to celebrate with them my best mate and i might not having the chance to attend this kind of gathering anymore... grab the chance tightly! erm!!! the night was fun, they eat like those barbarian~~ a complete chicken without head are gone into dust in just few seconds... i am staring at them striving to be first and fearing to be last.... the scene is damn funny!!

my friends~~

my kuantan friends in same form6 school.

this is it~ 10 of us~ i am gonna miss them sooo much~~

T__T

end of FEB

2011-02-24T10:30:00.002+08:00

24/02/2011

so fast time passed by~~~ is just like u just finish sang a song and u passed 2 months of 2011 dy...

i wish i can have a very beautiful song to sing throughout the year~~ this two months was a very very difficult and confusing path to go through. i lost my ways so many times, i lost myself, keep trying and trying to escape so many times, but still i keep telling myself "keep urself together and u will be fine" and i am still trying now, slightly better, i think. ^^

start from zero, sounds like easy, but its hard when at first u have like everything u need, but in sudden all gone, and u drop to the bottom, u have to climb up once again, by urself. sometimes i do feel like giving up, but i realize i still have things i cant put down, my family and my friends. the older i am, the more important family and frens i realize. i love u daddy and mummy, brother, soulmate, buddy, my "girlfren", and my newly met frens~~ u guys do help me alot. i love u guys~

met a killer lecturer recently, its really tension when enter his class, but he do recognize me. is it good or bad, it depends how i think and how i take it. i take it good cuz i think that he do really take attention on me, thats really a good sign to start my new life. i promise i will do well, sir. many subjects that needs my lead to be done, somehow is very stressful but is the right chance for me to learn, i am going to outside messy world soon, is time for me to be prepared. good luck to u BRYANT CHUA! i know u can work it out somehow~

financial, life, academic, all trying to push me to the edge of the hills, but lucky i do have some strength to push it back and i do have a parachute that always catch me whenever i fall. i hope the parachute is in a good condition la, no hole or any defective la. XD

there is a song i really like and motivated always~~ pink, f*ckin perfect~

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!

Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty please, if you ever feel like you're nothing
You are perfect to me....

thats all for now~~~ see ya later~~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2011

2011-02-10T13:38:00.004+08:00

happy chinese new year~~~ may u have a blissful one with ur family and friends~~

this is what i wished for others, and of cuz myself. i have a blissful, special celebration with my family. i wish my family all healthy, wealthy, and happy.

reunion lunch~~

my daddy's elder brother famliy with

my family.

there's nothing much to do though in this new year, missed out alot gathering with old frens as they all went back for exam... sad... hope to see u guys soon!! XD

i think i have grown up a little bit, my thinking become wiser and wider than i used to be. my car, cynthia, gone... Rest in Pieces.... total lost... haiz... i miss her so much... many ppl ask me whether will i angry my brother or scold him, yea sure i will scold him and angry him, but its not because of the car, is what he made my parents worried for him. that makes me very angry, but things happened, its not what he wished for, so what is passed is passed, hope learned the lesson.... i wont keep it in the heart so long as i cant bring it back to life again, its only good to wash away and stays as memories. (although i like to mumbling sometimes, but just let me lor for this while, i love my cynthia u know??!!) if was last time that immature me, sure i will made the whole house in a mess, and show all the anger all over the family members! but i didnt this time, i swallowed it myself and digest it with a smile. so happy i can do it! XD

about my TOSHIBA, haiz... same... put there as a wasted junk.... aiks.... i am speechless... but, suan le ba.... i dun wan to expect too much la~ let it be la... the more i expect, i wished for, all sure comes with an empty echoes... so learn to live with what i have now.

life is all about how to survive in this SURVIVAL GAME. and i am going to be the last one standing! XD

i am gonna start my super new life style in this last semester in my university life. walk to class, do my own laundry, take buses to outside, and more challenges to meet up with. but what the hell, do i look like i care?! i will get my own freaking life! XD

update to u guys soon~

is almost 10pm!

2011-01-23T21:43:00.001+08:00

23/01/2011

its almost 10pm!!! the day almost comes to an end! and i did nothing today!! what the hell.... supposed to read some books, sketch some ideas... but in the end~ nap for 2 hours! zzz

start tmr! must at least start my first chap of the important subject! i dun want to have any empty talk anymore! erm!!! (cross my heart! XD)

owh! by the way, wana jot down some bull shit news from THE NORTHERN UNIVERSITY OF MALAY-SIA, sounds so grand, but inside it is like a .... erm.... what? words cant describe it! LOL

requirements for car sticker, 80 points for SIRA(activities), need surat aku-janji, passenger insurans, and blah blah blah! last sem, also have to worried and so troublesome! even the loan PTPTN till now haven't bank in to us yet... how am i going to survive for the next few days!!!!??? i am officially broke!!! my wallet burned into ashes! what a sad story of mine... *sob sob*

but whatever, i am still alive, i am still breathing, and everyone around me are still fine, especially YOU! then i will be fine, i will try to look more optimistic! be a positive guy, not gooey one anymore. do what i have to do, do anything i like b4 i have the chance to regret about it! yeah baby!! ciao~~ wait i back home, its time for me to share the foods and beverages i tasted b4~~~ the line here sucks~~ cant upload~~ wait for me~~~ stay tune~

last sem in uum

2011-01-14T23:03:00.002+08:00

wuhu~~~ 13/01/2011

i am the first one back UUM this jungle among my frens(except wan yi.... >.<)

when back here, i dun feel bad at all, its not like the previous feeling i had, i hate it and i just have a feeling that screw this uni, but this time i back with a calm and peaceful heart. what a weird new me~~ maybe i grown up, who knows~

whole campus is like a haunted mansion or something like that, no living creature here except our grand grand grand grand grand grand..... parents(monkeys) all around the place!!! they break into our store room!!! i even went to wan yi's block to help her scare away those monkeys! what a hero am i~~ although i just help kick the door to scared them off~~ haha! XD

after the second day i reached only i finish my packing and cleaned the room. phew tired~

ok, tmr start to do my plan! learn some sketching of interior architecture~ and read some books~~ and exercise!!

many ppl said i have changed, i hope i changed into a better one, mature is not a bad stuff, makes me more wise nowadays~ gah yao gah yao!! do our best ya!!! i promise YOU i will be better than i ever been ,cuz i wana have a better future!!!

B010111T

LIVE with no regrets...LOVE with no limits

2011-01-05T11:54:00.002+08:00

life is too short for us to worry so many things in the same time. So why dun we start to do what we feel we want to, instead of guessing something that is not going to give any answer by sitting there looking down on tomorrow.

doubt about the decision we made wont give us any good, trust and have faith with it~~ live our life to the fullest!! although things not always goes our way, but dun just trying to look back and stay behind, GOD is creating something more interesting ahead us, way much better than what we have lost, sometimes letting go something good is not bad enough, cuz we might get something more awesome! XD

i know i am gooey sometimes, like what my soulmate always make fun of me, its time for me to grow up and be mature to look things in a better way and positive way. be grateful and appreciate all the things i have now and all the person around me now. daddy and mommy and brother, i am sorry for what i have done all this while, i might not showing that i love u guys so much in front of u guys, but deep inside my heart, i love u guys the most!!

slogan of the year, BE GRATEFUL WITH WHAT WE HAVE NOW!

2011~~

2011-01-03T15:11:00.003+08:00

new year lor, 2011!!

say hello to goodbye to 2010, and welcome 2011!!

lots and lots of things happened passed few days b4 2011, its like a dream~~ that passed in a blink of eye. i am 23 dy lor!!!! hehe XD

on this new year 2011, 1st of jan, 00:00 am, god sent me a present. a great one!!! the best one, the special one!!! most valuable one!!!

and that is i am still alive and i am living in happily healthy life with alots of new hopes!! new dreams!! new journey!!! no more jakun~~~

ok, start running my plans! first, be low profile as possible! (deleted almost 400 plus ppl lor~~ yesh!!)

next, start to clean my room, and rearrange my stuff~~( wan new year lor~~~)

after that, study things about my interior~~ hehe!!! XD (need to be very hardwork!!)

and most important one, is treat ma love one the best!!! give the best!!

be honest, trust, and sincere!

finger cross for everything, run smoothly this year, and yet still, stay true to myself~ XD

gambateh!!!

B20110101T THE NEW CODE FOR MY LIFE. ^^

Life On Line show

2010-12-28T12:43:00.002+08:00

Life on Line show aka LOLshow

its all about the discussion of the social network nowadays, pros and cons of course, such as twitter, facebook and so on. those social network nowadays is a way for people to shout out information and latest news, but some are using it in a wrong ways. like i, i am using it for chit-chatting with old or new friends. i do need social sites! XD

i found out this show from niki cheong as i followed him in twitter, he is cool guy~ haha

LOLshow episode 11:

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this is the online show, from them, John Lim, Niki Cheong, David Lian and David Wang.

http://zineradio.com/lolshow/

the link for the LOLshow sites.

sleek and slim package that is the BlackBerry Curve 9300 3G:

2MP camera with flash
GPS
WiFi & 3G
Optical trackpad + media keys
BlackBerry messenger

i wish to win this so much, and i want to present it to my beloved brother as a new year and christmas present! hopefully i can win it!!! XD

and last but not least, merry christmas and happy new year!!

left 4 days for 2010

2010-12-27T13:44:00.002+08:00

2010, soon will say goodbye and welcome 2011.

2010, phew... what a dramatic journey i had through out this year. many things happened in my life, my campus life, my love life, friends around me, my part time job, and so on~

2010, campus life of mine, hmmm, caryn left us and went to china for internship, our dance group in a mess. kinda sad, and the dance mates of mine started to make all the nonsense attitude. pissed me off actually, and i have a feeling to just quited and dance on my own. Oh!! and my roommate! i changed a roommate which makes me so in dilemma at first, as the rumors said that he is a very problematic guy, he smoke and play music in the room like no one in his world! but after living with him for 4 months, he is a very kind guy that treat me well~~ even treat me makan! haha. so rumors are always the fake one~ learned a lesson from that!

2010, my love life, a mess lor~ break up lor, gave ppl dumped lor~ and got lots of annoying flies around me! hate it! sad story huh, but nvm, maybe will have another better one waiting for me in front of me, HOPEFULLY! haha XD

2010, friends around me, all the fox tail came out right away when they know i drove my car to campus, so obvious that they just want to use me, haiz.... whatever.... but there are some friends that really care about me, i just noticed that i had abandoned them since i pak tor, this is so wrong, realize that there are still many ppl around cares for me! u suckers, i dun deserve u, i deserve better! (my ex) XD!! i love my best fren ever! Ms Wan Yi!!! haha!! (she will kill me if she saw this!) and i met a best one, a very very very, i mean VERY nice person on earth!!! my SOULMATE, that treat me like a superb!!! i am so touch!! even though we met on net but he is indeed a guy that knows me well, maybe he is the one that used to be my best mate previous life. haha!!! i am so so happy!!!

futhermore, i met my buddy, who is a great person, met the same prob as me, thats y i am his buddy~ haha! so many nice one appeared in my life in a sudden after i break up. my sight on this earth is wider now~ thanks to u! it shows that love is not everything, i still have family and friends that love me so much!!

2010, my part time job, hmmm, many weird weird things happened too~ work as music man as a part time job, first day already being warned by MACP, i am going to be jailed if i played music without any licence!! shit that organizer!! but its an experience, take it as a lesson. (it trilled me for a moment!)

2010..... what a journey, up and down. playing me non stop, but life is like that de la~~ face it bravely, and will see the beauty on the other side! wuhu~~ continue to planning and prepare for my dream ahead! startin little by little!

2010, can i wish something for my coming 2011? i wan a new laptop! pls! XD

i promise i will treat her like my best partner always!! pls pls pls~~ XD

this is my life on 2010. sweet, sour, bitter, spicy, all mixed up. my life is so happening! XD

same old me~

2010-11-02T01:24:00.002+08:00

hmm.... i tout i grow stronger....

but seems like i still the same old me, waiting for something that is not going to be real...

so naive, tout that the world will treat me nicer, seems like its just my fantasy, my dream...

and i am still stupidly waiting for it....

is a test, hopefully i can get thru this and have a better life!

i wan to do wat i want before i am 28! i wan learn dance, i wan to be air-steward, go get a interior design cert, and travel around the world, taste all the food!! hopefully i can fulfill my dream soon la~~ i think if i pass this test, i might be a very strong and different person!

ganbateh-desune~~~

i just wana be a good fren ma~

2010-10-22T13:59:00.000+08:00

aiyoyo~~ now a days a, too good or too kind will be a crime lor~~~
ppl will nvr appreciated what we done good and care for them, but they will even hate us wo~~ and angry us tim....
hmm... what happen to this era a?? the ppl nowadays? mutate dy or wat??
aiyoyo~~~ i just wan to cheer u guys up ma~~~ but manatau become annoyance and even ignore me liao... hmm...
u tout that concern someone is easy ma?? is hard lor~~~ we purposely make ourself worry for u guys, and cheering u guys up!
i am a clown, i will always do anything that can be ,like cheering u guys up de ma~ but now, i get more and more ppl hates me... i wonder y, am i too concern u guys and make u guys feel irritating? hmmm...

just all of all, i just wana be a good fren and a good buddy to u guys only~~~ not going to harm u guys ma~~

there is no more love for me...

2010-09-27T02:45:00.002+08:00

drop again and again...

i have no more place for me to land...

no more place that is safe for me anymore...

i dun deserve anything, dun even have the rights to stand up again...

can i know who else i can lay my head on, and cry?

i dun have... i dun have anything now... i am lost... and i am empty...

is all empty now....

ntg left for me anymore....

no more love for me anymore...

i dun deserve it anymore....

恐高症。。

2010-09-20T23:33:00.002+08:00

高空弹跳的刺激，

我不想听，

没兴趣冒险的游戏，

当你要请我，

为何轻易答应，

你的语气让我安心。。。

摩天轮上的夜景，

浪漫旋律，

在空中我忘了恐惧,

当你亲吻我，

分散了注意力，

怕高的我看见星星。。。

你让天空失去距离，

我让我离开了质疑，

往上爬的爱情，

告别回忆我在爱着你，

闭上眼睛把你抱紧，

幸福几乎变零距离，

你是我唯一勇敢的原因。。。

往上爬的那阶梯，

我不相信，

可以忘了爬高恐惧，

当你抓紧我，

不停的爬上去，

让我感受天堂空气。。。

你让天空失去距离，

我让我离开了质疑，

往上爬的爱情，

告别回忆我在爱着你，

闭上眼睛把你抱紧，

幸福几乎变零距离，

你是我唯一勇敢的原因。。。

你让天空如此靠近，

也让我掉无底洞里，

往下跌深下去，

只能往回忆里寻找你，

张开眼睛看不见你，

幸福几乎离我远去，

你又让我回去恐高症里。。。

你让天空如此远去，

我让自己不再相信，

怕高也怕爱情，

被你丢弃的心变恐惧。。。

i lost to my own tears....

2010-09-15T23:52:00.002+08:00

what a failure am i....

own tears also cant handle, how to handle others that i love?

heart so sour and so pain.... when knowing that there is no one in ur family that support and understand what you are thinking....

it makes me feel like i am nothing but a useless person in the world...

i know i am a lazy person but, i do observe things all around me... dun said i never take initiative...

i mention my dreams before, just that u guys never support...

i dun talk much is not that i dun wan to share, is because i am scared i will be being poured cold water again...

today, once again... i kena poured cold water again....

i lost all my control and lose to my own tears... which i hate so much!!!

i never drop a single tear in front of them... but today, i failed....

am i a failure production in this world?

because of you...

2010-09-05T19:32:00.001+08:00

I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you
I’ve lost everything because of you
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

It also rained on that day
You’ve stared at me wordlessly
You’ve stared at nothing else but me
Those trembling gazes,
And the awkwardly forced smile
Speaks of our separation...

Then I cry silently and wordlessly
Cause I want to stay next to u
My luv is true, wanna go back 2 when I was with u

I miss u… I need u…
Even in my dreams I’m wit u..
I miss u… I need u…
Rewind back the time
I wanna kiss u again ma boy…
My heart aches
It’s too much to bear
And where are you? (I cried a lot)
Can’t live without you
Please come back to me
And stay with me....

i am still me...

2010-09-05T17:31:00.002+08:00

i am still me...

the old stupid me...

just with lots of experience....

know how to be better for our love one...

i used to be give up very fast...

i used to be very weak...

but now...

i am going to be stronger...

i am going to be tougher...

i am going to be more hardworking...

because i am going to wait till the day u come back to me again...

i am going to wait till the day to hold ur hand again...

because i love u...

i am doom..

2010-08-29T08:13:00.003+08:00

isit loving someone is a crime???

isit caring someone is a sin???

then send me to hell,

cuz i done lots of crime and i made alot of sins in my life....

i just cant understand???!!!! why???!!!

what is happening???

i cant shout i cant cry...

what am i suppose to do now.... what...

lucifer, u just doom me.... u just cruelly doom me to hell.... y dun u just kill me instead of torturing me?

what should i do?

2010-08-14T00:27:00.002+08:00

what should i do???

where should i go?

who i belong to?

what you want me to do??

what do you want from me??

i really dono what you really want me to do...

i don wan to guess anymore...

new sem new chapter of life...

2010-08-12T23:30:00.003+08:00

12 aug 2010

it's been a while since the last drop at here...

this sem starts alot of new thing new experience for me....

1st,

i first time drive alone from penang to uum, and first time drive to campus!( feel happy and also feel worry bout going to spend more for this sem....)

2nd,

new roommate.... a sarawakian.... spent 3 weeks with him ... and still manage to survive... hope everything goes well...

(this sem starts in hell for me.... my heart cry for dono how many times.... everything goes so wrong in my path.... but finally i get up and stand strong... and see lots of new faces from those i knew for so long...)

3rd,

all the subject for this sem is so tiring.... and i have been chosen as the leader for many groups...

dun worry, i try my best....

4th,

first time try out as a model for a friend of mine, Ah Ma quenny loo... a pro photographer apprentice... support her~

5th,

hmm.... my life feel really empty.... i dun have friends that i can hang around... found out that all ppl around me are getting their own life partner.... and i am still here... din even step forward....

walking alone and stand alone in the corner... looking and enjoying others happiness.... wish everyone can last long forever... haha....

wandering around and no place to go or to hide.... this feel is so suffering yet is trying to make us stronger and tougher... this feeling no one ever feel... and i don wish anyone to feel that...

where am i now?? what am i doing now? what i do next? what i am doing for? where shud i go? who am i? who am i.....

this feeling, whos right, whos wrong, i already don't feel to discover it....

the more u love someone is going to be more harder to guess what is in their mind.....

520...

2010-05-20T15:42:00.002+08:00

20/05/10

todays date is so nice... every couple sure likes this number... 520... means i love u in chinese...我爱你... this word is so simple but it means alot... a powerful word...

i am sure today those couple will have a romantic night out with their love one...

i so wish to too... sigh~~

bao bei's 22th birthday~

2010-05-14T23:48:00.009+08:00

13/05/10

today was my bao bei's birthday!!! wuhu~~

POLC concept is using for this day~~haha

Planning: afternoon go for gym, night go for celebration at Black pearl~~

Organizing: ask my dad to fetch me to gym..( prepare for whole body ache... aiks!!><)

Leading: suppose to go buy a piece of cake for bao bei, but due to my lateness... aiks~~ all tak jadi and then siew siew fetch us all~ haha

Controlling: reach Black Pearl, and the place is so Texas~ the feel is quite good~ but when comes to menu, owh.... only one page of food choices????? aiks....

so we end up by ordering 3 fish and chips , and i order pork sausages with mashed potatoes which is my favorite~~ hehehe

but the drinks.... we look at the menu, only got 7 choices of drinks... all syrup, so we all order for different taste of syrup...

who knows... it was alcohol drinks mix with fruits! mine is the strongest liquor mix with bloody orange! lolx!!!

i don't drink alcohol unless is wine!

the food was ok, but the drinks to us is NOT OKAY! zzz...

Black Pearl~

fish and chips

pork sausages and mashed potatoes~

after we finish our dinner, and the alcohol drinks~

we decided to go beach to get some wind, as we are getting hotter and hotter after the alcohol!!! erg....

but we still SS as we used to lar~~ hahaha

me and bao bei~~

me and yoke sun~~

the drinks that makes us dizzy~~lolx~~

after beach we decide to go for a drive and go see those AQUA working~~ haha

thats the end of the day~~ what a full of entertainment day~~

two weeks study week...

2010-04-09T02:51:00.003+08:00

my two weeks "holiday"....

stays at kuantan home~ sweet!! can slp on my own sweet bed!! my own pillow!! my own bolster!! and my own room!! can slp with the air-con~ cool~~

and the main purpose to come back home is to study and accompany my parents... trying to soften their burden ... ntg much i can do but AT LEAST i can help do the house chores. hehe~~

dono what to do~~ but actually there are lots of stuff waiting for me to complete... but i just dont have the mood to do anything.... what happen to me??? and my mood swing like wind everyday!!! shit! hate it!=(

i just ... dono what i want to do now...

i feel so... hmm...

so empty tonight...

ntg seems right...

dono where to fight...

trying to reach the light...

although the room is still bright...

feels like everything is so tight...

so cold in the heart in this lonely night...

praying for 2moro will be alright...

jia you jia you!! study lar!!! dun hiao here anymore~~

i must fulfill my words that i will at least take 3.3 above! erm!!

my new song's lyric..

2010-02-17T11:26:00.001+08:00

我们的故事

花开始枯了，

也把我的心情慢慢的神枯了，

怎么了？

对花窃窃私语，

卿卿我我的像我和你一直以来的闹情趣，

为何不能一起，

把我的心情弄得杂乱无章的，

花也似似的流下泪，

花私自的把天空感动了，

哭着诉说好心痛，

故事翻不开次页，

亲爱，我真的好想念你，

不管一天两天三天几天都想着你，

我们相遇就像千载难逢一样的，

难得机缘好好珍惜，

不放开，

再怎么样也不放开，

你的手我也不会放开，

我们的故事不会有结局那一页。。。

思念虽然痛苦，

但这小小考验我们不能输的，

绝不会时写时辍，

力图写出完美无穷的页，

怀把泪滴滴流下，

湿了每一页也要。。。

亲爱，我真的好想念你，

不管一天两天三天几天都想着你，

我们相遇就像千载难逢一样的，

难得机缘好好珍惜，

不放开，

再怎么样也不放开，

你的手我也不会放开，

我们的故事不会有结局那一页。。。

狂风暴雨，遍体鳞伤，

心里那本书不怕坏灭，

应为我们坚固的爱保护心里那本书。。。

亲爱，你的爱把我撞到，

不管一秒两秒三秒几秒都爱着你，

就算我们只是短短的那几个月，

你的爱来得太雄烈，

停不了，

再怎么也停不了，

你不爱我，我也停不了，

因为这就是我们的爱情的故事。。。

hope u guys enjoy it!!! i know a bit childish lar... but my mandarin improve liao leh... i got do research de lor!!haha..^^

penang trip 7-9/12/09

2009-12-19T17:44:00.016+08:00

Penang trip begin~~ hehe...

board on bus at klang bus terminal, cuz go meet friends there.

i am going to penang to do my braces de... then sun bian have go there jalan-jalan cari makan lor~ haha...this is the journey of my 3 days trip~ hehe...

7/12/09

after finish my braces, we go kuan zhi jiao there have our dinner lu~ hehe... but no photos lar... forget to took... aiks...:(

8/12/09

2nd day of the trip

wake up early morning and then we went for dim sum as breakfast at steamboat house.

all of this, we two person makan all... erg.... full full!!

After that, we go meet my fren, purple at KOMTAR, then we went to batu feringgi, the hard rock hotel and the beach there lu~~

me and micheal jackson statue~hehe^^

me and purple lu~~

syok sendiri there lor~~ hahaha...

batu feringgi beach~ haha

hmm... pretend to be emo there~

hard rock cafe lu~ all the drinks are expensive!!!

hard rock cafe~~ yea baby!! nice place~~

my mocha... the only drink i afford to drink... aiks.. kelian...

sigh~

purple, me and vchin lu~

again~ me and purple lor~

after that we went to The Ship there take some photo then we head back to gurney there have our dinner... name winter warmer~ hehe

9/12/09

thats my 3 day journey lor....

after that i went to klang to help my friends cousin work for one day and go makan makan lor~~ hehe...

thats all for now lor~ adios~~

small genting~

2009-12-14T20:20:00.003+08:00

28/11/09

今天是我第一次在吉隆坡的lowyat面试！！！人生21年来第一次为了工作而面试。。。

紧张！！！！

当轮到我的时候，我耳朵红到～～～～～又热到～～～～

最后。。。我的面试一句就能形容。。。烂！！！

过后我们心血来操，就到了小云顶享受一顿丰富的晚餐...

那儿的风景还蛮不错的哦。。。好浪漫的哦。。。呵呵。

我们到了一间叫haven 的餐厅享用。。。

Kl的风景。。。

那儿的餐厅。。。

HAVEN COMBO AND BBQ FOOT LONG SAUSAGES!!!

赞！！！

my sekinchan trip(25-28/11/2009)

2009-12-01T02:43:00.007+08:00

25/11/2009

this trip was planned for long time... but is still unsure until the day after our exam finish. the exam week was terrible!!!! kill me instantly!!! lolx...

but finally i had made my decision to go to the trip as i need a place to calm down all those hectic days!!! (in my opinion i do think that sekinchan would be a place for someone to find peace~)

so i brought ticket to kl on 23th, only then i told my parents i made my mind to go.. haha... what a bad boy am i... haiz....

so on that day i went to kl by bus, then go meet my friend at midvalley... my first time taking ktm to midvalley!!! alone!!! walao!!! cool!!! lolx....

then my friend (vchin) wait me at midvalley then bring me to his house at sekinchan, supposed that we are going with one more friend sze lin, but she have something emergency to settle so she have to go on the next day.... haiz...

after around one hour, the first impression of the environment of sekinchan... erm... hardly express... is so peaceful there. the first i go is go to have a dinner with his family... 3 dishes, 2 fish and a vege... lolx... i never had my meal with all fish as my dishes... but the fish was nice~

26/11/09

supposed to wake up early morning to go for breakfast with his family, but his dad got something to do.... so we delay it to tmr lu... haiz.... miss a chance of tasting nice food there....

but then we cont our plan, go for bukit melawati~

so we go meet sapphire(the sa por), wen xuan(the daughter of ketua kampung). we 4 ppl in a car to bukit melawati~ i think i spell right lu... haha. we went to museum there and walk around the nice spot~ it was nice but the weather is dam hot!!! and lots of monkey there!!! lolx...the most bu suang feeling is that... my zip on my pants spoiled!!!! and the two girls spot on it!!!! sienx.... kelian me.... some more, when we pass by crowd of people taking photos of monkey when we were in the car, a man took out his camera and capture me like capture the photo of monkey!!!! arg!!!! angry!!!!grrrr.......bu suang!

and then we went to taman alam.... should have name it taman mosquito!! we paid the fees into it to let those mosquito suck our blood madly!!! crazy!!!

after that we go meet sze lin who took bus to kuala selangor and we go fetch her~ and then we back home(vchin's house) to prepare for bbq tonight!!! wuhu!!! lots of fun!!!

the 4 zuo zuo people posing~

(sapphire tee, wen xuan, vchin, and me)

lolx.... sapphire always the not muo qi one...

L.O.V.E.

27/11/09

wake up at 7 something then go have a breakfast with his family...

UNBELIEVABLE!!! the most heavy meal i ever had for my whole life!!!

is heavier than my dinner!!! 4 dishes!! 3 fish and a vege!!! lolx....

breakfast eh... but all the fish are quite nice( although i din eat much as i not very good at eating the fish.... aiks... paiseh...)

then we plan to walk around sekinchan and take photo with the scenery there in the evening~

but suddenly wen xuan and sapphire put aeroplane as they are not free.... sien....

but still we (me, vchin and sze lin) still follow our plan~ haha... here are some of our nice pic~

vchin, sze lin and me~

wuhu~ nice one!!!

the padi field~ nice nice!!!

28/11/09

haiz... is the day we have to wave and say good bye to sekinchan, the most cool family(vchin and his parent)... so nice there~ but for sure i will still go visit there again!!! haha... wait for me ya sekinchan~

thats all for the sekinchan trip ~chao~

hectic days...

2009-11-09T15:05:00.002+08:00

final exam weeks....
killing me , tearing me into pieces...
chop chop chop!!!
erg.... sien lar...all the notes i swallow cant vomit out when go into the war...
no matter how i gorek my tongue oso cant out... aiks... maybe i need to tear it into smaller pieces baru can vomit out...( cuz of my braces cant bite smoothly...) sienx...
so... kena chop and shot terrifically.... die gao gao...

LOLX....

not just this.... the money in my pocket also chop me....
dono why my money flows like water fall... in jungle oso can spend that much mea??? hm... still cant figure it out... aikx....

AND my lappie oso play me!!!! now my lappie dono what happen.... cant connect to windows.... cant online and cant even scan!!! shit!!! every sem sure something will happen to my lappie geh... i dono why lor... haiz....

HOPE HOPE HOPE!!!
I CAN GET ALL PASSED AND AT LEAST PASS 3....AIKS..

moonfest celebration 2009

2009-10-29T05:12:00.006+08:00

26/10/2009

today is the celebration for moonfest 2009, supposed that i am not going for it geh... as our bureau members all agreed that we will not go for the celebration.....

but... i am the only one have to go ying chou, as the MT ask me to represent our bureau go... sigh... why i so kind that go agree with them as i know that it will be very boring geh... lolx...

However, luckily i got few frenx that accompany me all along the way, that are ah lim, purple, sze lin and vchin~ hehe... although they have their own partner, but still they ask me to join them...

those food there.... sucks.... tout i can have a big meal there... manatau i only ate few piece of very very small piece of fried chicken... erg... at last beh tahan dy so go to nearby old town da bao nasi lemak, fire ice polo bun and french toast as my dinner.. hehe^^

this pic i like the most eh!!! we two look so pro leh!!!

haha^^

vchin( junior) and sze lin~

ah lim~(the sot sot one)

x-element solo portfolio

purple~(the emo one~)

me-bryant(the ss, cool cool, emo, and so on....)

2009-10-23T01:10:00.002+08:00

I'M SO SORRY.....

对不起...

GOMENASAI....

i am a jerk....

study week....

2009-10-22T16:04:00.002+08:00

hm..... what the hell am i doin now lea??? am i suppose to stay in the library, find a nice spot, with cool condition, alone in the corner, with my mp3, switch on my lappie, find few of my reference book which i hide it in some mysterious place on the shelf, gather it all then ...

sleep on the table??? haha^^

what a jerk am i??? lolz....

i wan to study!!!! but dont know y my mood of study is in cold storage now!!! s@cks!!!

left one week plus my final exam is going to start... and is killing me as i havent start any!!!( even all the notes also havent print!!!erg...)

hopefully i can cover it all starting from today!!! jia you!!!!

NOTHINGS COMES BY ITS OWN,

ONLY IT WILL COME TO YOU IF YOU FIGHT FOR IT!!!

MFC performance ( 10/10/09)

2009-10-12T02:41:00.010+08:00

10/10/09

our 2009 last performance, and also consider as the biggest performance for this semester!! (for us la... paiseh) here how it goes on that night...

our performance was told to be at 9.30pm geh, so we all do our last practice for that day till 7pm then go back prepare up, 8.30pm go there ready... who knows our performance delay till 10pm liao... so we wait with empty stomach... we plan that after our performance only have our big dinner geh...

10pm liao... still not yet our turn... aiks... our group member, caryn start to fed-up liao... as we are too...

10.15pm, at last!!! their ajk ask us to prepare at the stage there liao... lolz... but that time the day start raining, quite heavy actually... OMG... is going to slippery as it was an open air stage...we all start to worry liao...scare cant move well... but we still perform our best and stay cool~

at last, we perform erm... can assume is a good one i think.. haha.. i will upload our video later cuz my line now is not very smooth and stable.lolz..

so this performance ends happily!!! finally finish our 7th performance for this semester!!! wuhu!!!

next is planning to go have a big celebration!!! yea!!!

here are some photo of our X-element group members ~

X-Element~PURPLE

X-Element~AH LIM

X-Element~CARYN

X-Element~ XHINE

X-Element~BRYANT

~X-ELEMENT~

最远的地方。。。

2009-10-10T14:55:00.002+08:00

你是第一个发现我

越面无表情越是心里难过

所以当我不肯落泪地颤抖

你会心疼得抱我在胸口

你比谁都还了解我

内心的渴望比表面来得多

所以当我跌断翅膀的时候

你不扶我但陪我学忍痛。。。

我要去看得最远的地方

和你手舞足蹈聊梦想

象从来没有失过望受过伤

还相信敢飞就有天空那样。。。

我要去看得最远的地方

披第一道曙光在肩膀

被泼过太冷的雨滴和雪花

更坚持微笑要暖的像太阳。。。

the long 15 days...

2009-10-10T14:25:00.002+08:00

15 days... a very long 15 days... it feels like 15 years i have been away from the place i wish to be... a very suffering but in some way it do bring some sweet feeling , let us have a slot to miss each other so much... but... i miss it so much... aiks... i kept dreaming about going back there... kept on plays the lullaby songs to make me strong and can have a nice sleep... wake up with a smile in the next day, hope there will be a miracle happen... really hope so lar~haha

here some nice stuff wanna share with all of ya, hope u guys like it~

if the world stops turning,

if the sun stops burning,

when the cold winds starts to blow,

i wanna let u know,

i'll never let u go...

when u feel like breaking,

and ur heart keeps waiting,

when the tears begin to flow,

i wanna to let u know,

i'll never let u go...

the 3 continuos performances on 2nd of october

2009-10-09T18:41:00.002+08:00

ah lim, caryn, me, xhine,and purple. at muamalat moonfest~

02/10/09

our uum tour performance... haha... we went to 3 DPP for performance in one nite... walao!!! what a team are we??? lolz... althou is just a short practice period for this time performance but we did our best... we almost everyday train till early morning... in one week we came out a performance like this is already really good for me... i mean for us... i know is not perfect but still is worth it as we get paid~hehe... i only can post out the pic as my line here too cha... cant post out the video... but will post it when i found a good spot!! hehe...

the most unforgetable performance i ever had....SUCKS!!

2009-10-09T17:54:00.002+08:00

me and caryn

1st of October 2009...

my dome's moonfest carnival.... aiks... what a bad day for me... we were invited to give a F.O.C. performance for the carnival... ok... here how it goes to make me mad and very piss off...

at first, i request a better stage for us, and most important is the sounds system... they promise me to give me what i request de... but at last... the stage not okay nvm lor... the sounds system... one word... use mic to put on the lappie... that is the sounds system they prepare for us... erg.... sucks!!!! i have to stop them for 3 times!!! due to the sounds was too small and i cant hear the beat!!! shit... so paiseh that time... i dance half way have to stop them .... wth..... wat a day for me... but at last i continue my dance and finish it as it should be... but very piss off at that nite...

i kind of lose myself dy... all those nasty words.... came out from my mouth which i seldom speak out de.... erg.... hope that my reputation still the same lar... haha...

心墙

2009-09-26T07:26:00.002+08:00

郭静

心墙

一个人眺望碧海和蓝天

在心里面那抹灰就淡一些

海豚从眼前飞越

我看见了最阳光的笑脸

好时光都该宝贝应为有限

我学着不去担心得太远

不计划太多反而能勇敢冒险

丰富地过每一天快乐地看每一天。。。

第一次遇见阴天遮住你的侧脸

有什么故事好想了解

我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙但我发现一扇窗

偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光

就算你有一道墙

我的爱会攀上窗台盛放

打开窗你会看到悲伤溶化。。。

你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳。。。

miss...

2009-09-13T19:39:00.003+08:00

i miss those brown eyes,

how u kiss me at night,

i miss the way we sleep,

like there's no sunrise,

like the taste of ur smile,

i miss the way we breath,

but i wish to tell u,

what i wish to tell you,

but i never told u,

i just held it in....

and now,

i miss everything about u,

cant believe i cant breathe without you,

after all the things we've been through,

i miss everything about u,

i miss u....

i see ur brown eyes,

everytime i close mine,

u make me hard to see,

where i belong to,

when i'm not around u,

it's like i am not with me...

but i wan to tell u,

what i felt inside,

but i never told u,

i jz held inside....

baby,

i miss everything about u,

wish that always can be there for u,

our love i wish to hold on to,

i miss everything about u,

without u ....

i dono what to do,

where i belong to,

i am all about u,

thats all i can said,

baby,

i love everything about u,

cant believe i am so in love with u,

i wish our love will last long forever,

i love everything about u....

i love u....

我的爱

2009-09-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

又来到这个车站，

不想看到的路口，

我不想再次离开你身边，

泪水在眼眶里徘徊。。。

时间残忍的一直流，

一点同情也不留，

我的心沉着，深深跌落，

只想拥抱着我们现在的所有。。。

我不是一定要你爱我，

只是让我好好的爱你，

就算只能看你背影，

我也不顾一切地前进。。。

我不是一定要拥有你，

只想拥抱爱你的时机，

感受爱来过的美丽，

爱你就如我的呼吸。。。

再次回到那时候，

不想离开的镜头，

我拥抱着你，不想放手，

不想让遗憾出现我爱情里头。。。

我不是一定要你爱我，

只是让我好好的爱你，

就算只能看你背影，

我也不顾一切地前进。。。

我不是一定要拥有你，

只想拥抱爱你的时机，

感受爱来过的美丽，

爱你就如我的呼吸。。。

我只想给你我要的爱，

在无奈的场合变期待，

期待我们一起的未来，

终于等待的那天已来。。。

谢谢所有你给我的爱，

我的心只为你而存在，

除了你以外的依赖，

有谁能叫我去勇敢，

没有任何人能取代，

只有你能给我的爱。。。

is just not enough yet...

2009-08-31T15:49:00.004+08:00

29/08/09

not enough... just not enough....

the way i am now... is just not enough yet... still have alot that need to improve...

since the day (29/08/09) , i found out that... i am still ... not good enough yet...

i am so, useless and so down that time when ... erm... i cant do anything but staring at it drop out into this world...

but...

trust me...

i will improve and enhance myself to be the one...

the one that always be there when needed,

the one to wipe all the sadness,

the one to lend out the shoulders for the tears to land on,

the one to be trust worthy for anything,

i will be the one...

believe me and trust me that i will be the one...

photography session for moonfest charity nite 2009~

2009-08-28T13:07:00.007+08:00

27/08/09

photography session. i am the one to in charge for all the beraeu photograph session... is so challenging... but overall.. i manage to overcome it and proved that i am capable to do it!!!wakaka...happy~hope that those photo that have been capture will be in good quality lar.. hope that MT and all the committee will like the result~hehe^^

apa lar... y all point at me wo... because of i am a photographer ma???haha...

gao xiu lor~

our bereau ~special task~there is 3 more malay committee that can't

attend due to berbuka puasa.lolz

special task~ boys only...

(ops, y suddenly feel that i look a bit like wearing super junior their cloth geh??)

haha...

free pose~ lolz...

still have long way to go~ lolz.. hope that everything will be just fine as planed....haha..

moonfest charity trip 2009(21/08/09)

2009-08-23T16:21:00.001+08:00

21/08/09 friday....

this the day i have abandoned my important day...

although this trip is my big project thou....

hmm.... very complicated feeling on that day...

but ... let just skip the feeling of mine ba... focus on the trip lu...^^

5.30am... need to wake up from my lovely bed and so wish to just hide inside the blanket , slack on the bed ~ but... bo bian.. need to wash up and prepare , as i am the one to in charge for my laluan... tension , i mean really tension ! lolz... i have to bring the breads, 70 pack of gardenia's bread!!! and t-shirt for the committee!!!

so heavy man!!! lucky i got my friend helped me~phew...

6.45am.. gather all the committee and brief them about the jobs and the group .

overall my laluan is the most smooth one lar, paiseh.. but the fact is my laluan is the most efficient and most fast to settle all up de.. although i am really a shy and soft spoken guy. but still i manage to control!!! cool~

we went to an orphanage house which located at sik, kedah. 2 hours driving from alor setar.

when we arrive there, those children were like so happy waiting for us, all of them were standing outside there waiting... we divide into groups and divide jobs . i am the whole day camera man~ but still i will help others that are in need lar.. hehe^^...

this is our committee photo at ADIK...

just a simple random photo that we take during the break with the orphanage.

after ADIK there, we went to an old folks house which located at a place called pokok sena. the helpers there are so friendly, and they even cooked some food for us!!! which is very delicious!!!hehe^^ and i am very hungry that time~ 4pm liao... lolz..(haven't took my lunch and breakfast.... as the food at the ADIK there not enough, so have to let all the committee and the orphan eat...) we help to clean the place around the house, and make tang yuan with the senior citizens there... although is just short moment with them... but they are happy as i can see on their face...

didn't have any photos... cause my camera out of battery liao... lolz... sien...

even though, is a very tiring day, and there are few problems we met during the trip, still is a very meaningful day for us, i bet all of us thinks that way~ thanks ya , to all the committee~ thanks for helping to run this trip smoothly and gives love to the orphan and the senior citizens...

a dinner with family at east grill~(19/08/09)

2009-08-22T20:35:00.008+08:00

19th of august 2009.

today is a big day actually... is the 2nd month i am in the new me condition!! wuhu!! to be honest, i am half sad and half happy...

the happy one is that i am glad and i am with the new me now!!! i am so appreciated what is with me rite now...

the sad one is that... i cant celebrate this special day with what i hope so much... i am so sad with it actually... i really wana celebrate with the plan i have made...but due to the CHARITY TRIP for the UUM's mpp moonfest charity night 2009... i have to back early...haiz... sad...

BUT , i try to make myself happy by asking my dad to bring to a place which is quite nice enviroment and the food is quite delightful. at least i can have the good dine in a romantic place...

so let's take a short tour to see the food and dishes we order lu...

east grill's nasi pataya~small amount but the taste is not bad.

my chocolate milkshake~ sweet!yea~^^

hmm...

this the Today Special main course, grill chicken with spagetti in carssanee sauce~

(i tink i spell right lar..haha.)

the taste is yummy!! ^^

this is the enviroment in the restaurant lu... ok rite?? hehe^^

after the dinner, take the 9pm bus back to the jungle again... which i realy dun wan to... sigh... i miss my night cuz of the trip... so in a dissapointment mood that day... make me so down.. but look forward to the next big day!

the 2nd months of my new life(19/08/09)

2009-08-19T16:32:00.000+08:00

19/08/09

this is the 2nd month of my new life.... is a big change for me... I MEAN REALY BIG CHANGE!!!

i change alot... i finally found the life that is really gift for me... my days filled with love and happiness started from the 19th of june 2009... two months back then... i found myself, i found my happiness, i found my present, i found my love, i found my life.... i am so appreciate it so much till is hardly express out by words... all i ever wanted to say now is that...thank u for everything... thank u for saving me from the dark(which is very dark back then , i hate it so much, but there is no one ever know it...thank u for saving me out from the hell)... thank u for letting me have the new me now... thank you for giving me this chance to love and to be loved.... thank you...

this word really do mean alot me...although it do look very simple and normal...but is full with meaning...

deeply from a heart of mine...

my bro convocation on 09/08/09

2009-08-17T00:26:00.000+08:00

09/08/09

hm... a big day!!!! a very big day for my bro, my parent and of course me!!!haha... this means alot to my bro... he graduate lea!!! wakaka...so proud of him...

this is how the day start, erm...

ya!! ok , at first i went to klcc to have a walk and take my lunch there, manhattan fish market, erm...

the taste diff from the penang which i love it so dam much!!! but klcc branch is a bit... cant say is disaster, but jz not as nice as what i ate before lor...

i have to go klcc first as i am not allowed to go into the hall with my parents during the graduation session at MCA....and i got mission to do!!! that is to meet up my bro girlfriend and excort her to my bro!!!

she wants to give my bro a surprise!!! sure i have to be the perfect one to help her ma... but so paiseh... i dono how to go to the MCA building from klcc... althou i have ask the information counter... haiz... paiseh lor... then lucky she's friend know the place...

when we reached there, i was like sweating like hell!!! and so gan zeong as i dono which flower should i buy for my bro... hm... at last i ask that flower guy choose one for me... red rose!! hehe.

then i wait alone at the front door, as my bro's GF want to hide up and give him surprise ma... so i will be the one to give them signal when my bro come out....

one hour passed... still havent come out yet!!! erg... my leg were so dam tired as i stand there with no place for me to sit, my shoulder was so dam pain as i begging my backpack which is about 10kg weight!!!! erm... around that amount lar, i din go measure..lol... and i am dam thirsty lor.... din bring any drinks to cool myself...

Finally , my bro called me, and ask me where am i... around 4.45pm... see him with the 'jubah', i am so happy!! my bro graduate liao!!! wuhu!!! he is my one and only bro i have lea!!! sure i am so proud of him!!! as i follow him since i was small... i bet my parents would be way much more happy than me lor..keke...

i wish i can graduate faster... lolz... hope that i can graduate smoothly as plan lor... hope .. lets jz pray and hope lor... hehe...

i am a pig...

2009-08-06T19:00:00.000+08:00

i feel like crying now.... as i fail myself.... i was given a mission that is very important to me, but i failed.... my heart is crying now.... hope everything is ok... but my D din reply the msg i sent.. i hope D is not angry with me... but for sure i cant forgive myself... as i promise myself, this is the first and the last liao!!! i wont ever let myself do the same mistake again..... i am sorry D...

1st of aug 2009

2009-08-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

01/08/2009 saturday... 7.05am.. my alarm start ringing, can't believe that i actually can wake up this early with just one alarm!!! is so shock for me!! haha^^ but i can wake up cuz of some mission i need to be done for someone de~haha. 7.10am i drive to the beach which is the famous beach in kuantan, teluk cempedak, just me alone with my "lao por" mp3...hehe... suddenly feel so energetic as i usually will be a zombie whenever my class is on 8am de , even 9.30am class!!! but 2day i am so alive!! walao!! so geng wo the "magic thing" can works!! wuhu~ i walk and take some pic with my cheap camera phone which is only 3.2mp... but can see ok dy lar.. hehe...actually i was thinking bout walking to the TC2 ,the second part of the TC, but i do not dare to pass the bridge as there is bunch of my dad 'anak angkat' (monkeys) waiting for their next target!!! erg!! so ... i just turn away and go to mcD buy some hash brown and fillet-o-fish , with a hot tea~

'taan' some hot tea at mcd after a walk on the beach~

eating hash brown~ which is our favorite food~potatoes!!

the bridge to TC2, haiz... not dare to pass there as is too 'dangerous' to walk thru the bridge alone!!!haha^^

a small gathering on 30th of july 2009

2009-07-31T00:14:00.000+08:00

30/07/09 , 2day weather quite nice pun~ but i slpt over again lor... so pig a!!! i don't want to!! as i wan wake up and acc my D de ma.. haiz... but nvm.. lucky my D is so kind to me .. haha.. 2day me and few of my friends decided to go have a small gathering , but at the last minute two of my friend put aeroplane lor... sien nia.. still we will run our plan as planned..hehe^^. me , juan, jj,and sheng yee decided to go makan at sushi king at EAST COAST MALL. although is already sien for us to go there lar, as been to ZANMAI liao sushi king is nothing to me liao..keke.. here some pic of 4 of us makan~

jj and juan ~ they two busy makan the golden egg which is very nice!

sheng yee makan unadon mee~

see their cute action when eating.. lolz...

thats all for the afternoon session of small gathering (just having lunch together). but after that, at night we oso have another small gathering with the girls now~haha.. 3 beautiful young ladies.. we go to a place which is still new in kuantan, name "fico". the situation there still ok lar.. boleh tahan lor...haha.. so we go there yum char~ we didn't order much, i think can said that only i makan nia..lolz...we ordered 3 ice blended drinks, one large french fries , one fico penny(itallian food) , banana filtters. lets have a look about it...

fico penny~ erm.. the taste quite nice but my mum's one is the best!!haha^^ u guys should try my mum spagetti~

banana filtters~ my favorite banana~ yummy!! although it do looks a bit... er... but the taste is so good!! nice to have it as a dessert!! delicious man!!

my three beautiful ladies, 'bao bei' pei fern, san san, and 'ah por' soo yee.

ah por, me, bao bei,and san san~ at fico cafe.

erm... 2day i spend my day quite busy also lor... haha.. gathering here and there.. although is a small gathering, but meet old friends also very happy liao..haha.. ( money do flows like water..erg).^^

my fren sun's bday at crocodile rock

2009-07-29T01:53:00.000+08:00

28th of july 2009, my fren yoke sun's birthday!! me , 'bao bei' pei fern and yoke sun went to a nice romantic restaurant in kuantan names crocodile rock. long time didn't go there for dinner liao... so we 3 decided to have a nice yum char at there.keke^^althou only we 3 ppl, but is very nice and fun!! somemore is raining day, is so cold and romantic..keke^^ we order sunset special pizza, dauphinoise potato, and a chocolate biscuit cake!! its nice!! lets have a look ba....

dauphinoise potato~look simple and plain, but it taste yummy!!! nice!!

me and yoke sun and peifern~at crocodile rock.

sunset special pizza, chocolate biscuit cake and a dauphinoise potato~

chocolate biscuit cake~

got chance u guys should have try it~ is realy nice place and nice food there..

mass mahem in UUM(26/07/09)

2009-07-28T14:59:00.000+08:00

UUM announced a special one week holiday!!! wuhu!! by the way, what is the reason they announced that super good news or isit a bad news??

UUM kena quarantine , due to the so called H1N1 is striking serious in the campus!!! almost 500 cases are reported in UUM... walao!!! quite serious man!! but mostly are the ILI(influenza-like illness), is jz seem almost the same with H1N1 nia..lolz...hope so is not the real H1N1 lar...so at 4.30pm the annoucement have been made everywhere in the campus even our DPP... so everyone was like crazy , dono is scared or happy that can back home, but mostly is happy as they can escape from this lousy jungle place..haha!! i am one of the happy one!!haha.. my phone rang non-stop until hang .. lolz... first time ever in my life so busy answering the phone... busy answering both of my phone, non-stop even a second!!! crazy!! my junior lar, my fren lar, my roommate lar , my parents lar and so on... lolz... somemore got rumors that the campus is not going to let all the students out from campus... is so ridiculous rumors... makes ppl so worry and rushing like maniac.. but really funny that time , u can the students there running like escpae from alien or ghost, the whole scenery is like seen before somewhere in the movie, oh!! horror movie such as resident evil!!!hahaha... so regret that din manage to capture any photo and din record it down as is realy hard to have this situation... all the bus stop were full like erm... hardly describe... those busses are so fulled!!! and road side oso got ppl wait there... is so wasted didn't take any photo of it... haiz...and oso i rushing pack my stuff , many stuff didn't bring back!!! my notes my name list my blet and many more!!! but i was lucky that i got my friend fetch me go out take bus.. haha.. and i am damn lucky that i get the ticket back to kl!! wuhu!!the earliest one!!haha!! thanks to my best friend , wan yi lor!!haha. should treat her a big meal!!maybe one bite of BR.keke^^ so i ask my D wether can accomodate me for a night or not as i am very paiseh oso, cuz i will be arrive at midnite... the next day still have class for my D... haiz... but still D agree to keep me...haha.. paiseh but realy happy lor!!!

27/07/09 ,Arrived PUDU at almost 4am like that, aiyo, so late dy, really so paiseh to D, but still my D use the happy face as always to fetch me..haha.. we din even sleep for whole night as we busy chit chating till morning, aiyo, din see the time pass so fast, again so paiseh lor!! makes D cant sleep, but i try to take the earliest bus back to kuantan so that i wont bother D for class..haha.. but thanks anyway for keeping me for a night!! haha^^ leaving me a sweet memory~ this is an unforgetful day and experience for me!! i wont ever forget it!!! thanks!!! what a memorable day for me~^^

我的依赖。

2009-07-17T03:17:00.000+08:00

地震的夜晚赶来作伴，

重感冒的凌晨煮着稀饭，

这个让我哭过的人多么温暖，

我感谢我们不完美却坦白自然，

我们从牵手放手又牵手走过来，

愿意为更懂你的心spending on my life,

每当情绪像海你只抱我从不催我讲出来，

我就明白你是我的依赖。。。

我们从期待失落又期待走过来，

愿意为一起看未来spending all my life,

每当变成习惯生活太淡總有感动的以外，

我就明白你是我的依赖。。。

就算说幸福都由老天在管，

只借不送我还是不肯还，用真爱耍赖，

我们从日出日落又日出走过来，

愿意为爱你去忙碌，spending all my life,

每当命运变幻需要狂欢需要流泪你都在，

我就明白你是我的依赖，

我们明白爱是互相依赖。。。

new crazy sem

2009-07-14T01:47:00.000+08:00

i have been thinking for very long time since the 3rd sem start, the first day start till now, there are alot of things need to be realy consider about.... is like havent start 3rd sem i already have few big project on my hand...i am totally sick of it... i feel like i am done... i am so tired that no one ever know.. physically , mentally and my soul... i can still survive till now is because of my family, frens and of cuz the most is my special person that i realy into that support me so much and lighten my days and my soul... i realy appreciate all.. so that is why i still standing here strongly with my own face without my fake happy go lucky mask that i used to wear it... i am glad that i met that person...

ok, here is my sem project, i got few project that have to run in this sem, and i do have post in it, and i do need to take part of my archery competition due to i am one of the U team, and somemore i need to do some performance .... ridiculous right for me alone to do all this ? that is why i have been thinking deeply like crazy, wether i can handle and cope with it or not... at last i drop and quit one of project that i join since last sem that organize by my so called brother, i am so sorry to him, and i feel bad that i cant help him.. but i do tink that is the best way for my own good, and the project good too since i cant help much... after i tell him bout it, i feel a bit release and relieve at some point..haha.. sounds bad right? i know... but i do it for the best for both of us...hope he dont mind lar. but in my hand i still have one big project as i am one of the asst.leader of special task... i realy wanted to quit it also as i feel that i cant stand the conflict and fakeness in that project board... i realy dont like it... but i cant quit as i already do it half way and that i need to finish up what i suppose to do, and my special into person always support me so i still can coped with it... haha... and one more project is not very big project but still involve with all the student in UUM as the project is under UUMproject not DPP project... but it havent start yet... i hope i can handle it... this recently my fren and my senior keep on pull me into their project.. but i straight away reject it as i am really really not into the mood anymore and i dont have any free time for lioa... somemore i takin two my most important course(my major subject!!) and also LAW paper that i scare so much!!! shit!!

in the other hand i still have 3 or 4 competition that i need to compete for this sem... as i am one of my team member... i need to participate and i oso admit that this is a good chance to proof myself!but today i recieve a msg that is realy heart broken to me... i cant go to UPM competition that held on this 22th of july 2009...due to we dun have much time for preparation and the time is short... so my coach cancel it ... but i realy look forward bout it....haiz... and somemore that the 2nd competition is at melacca on 5th august, but i cant participate due to i have to attend my bro convo ... so i have to pass.. and the sarawak open, i oso have to pass as the date is crash with my moonfest charity trip... i am sooooooooooooooo piss off.... and dissapointed... alot... cuz i feel like prepare for nothing althou i still have many chances, but i do look foward for this time competition... haiz...maybe is fate ... have to accept it...

tell me guys, isit a crazy sem?? haha.. ops , somemore i have to perform dancing for few events.... lolz... i am going to be crazy this sem... but i will jis you!! cause i got people that support me and give me hope!!! i wont let u down de!!!jiz you!!! but still is a crazy sem...lolz

THE MAGIC WORD!(08/07/2009)

2009-07-08T11:40:00.000+08:00

7/7/09 , tuesday nite, a cool and peaceful nite....

i jz finished my interview session for the new committee ... dam piss off, and tired actually cuz of some problem... but i very happy and excited , i cant wait to see someone new hair cut~ i am so curious bout it, wanted to have a look how noob izit, hahah... but no matter wat hairstyle oso will be the best that person. hehe, when i see , is almost the same lar, ntg big change, still the same, that i into de person... never change my mind at all, ever! we chat for few hours and very happy!!! i enjoy alot!!!

But because of tmr i nid to wake up early as i got class at 8am.... i cant wake up de!!!! i 10am class oso skip de... lolz...so that person ask me to take rest earlier... actually i don wan to slp so early cuz i wan accompany that person, i wan slp after that person,everyday evevrynite, so that i can fang xin...haha..

this is the main point.... something realy realy a magic that person give to me ... althou is jz a simple word, but it change and paint all my life, my love, my heart, and my soul , everything of me!!! i am soooo ... hard to explain... is jz a word that that person keep in heart, but manage to split it out to me.... is a miracle!!!! i know that person is a very cant express well the feeling de.. but manage to split to me... means i am the luckiest person in the world!!! is jz few words, but very meaningful to me!!! i was like stun....all i can say is thank you only that time... the moment that person say out, the second start change everything in our life.... thank you... i first time feel i am valueable and i am alive in this world...i first time feel the love, the real love.... arrigatou for everything... thank u for the magic word... i love u...

it's you

2009-07-05T03:00:00.000+08:00

it's you,

is only u for me...

it's you...

i don't need anyone else, it's only you for me,

even if you ask me again, it's only you for me,

you might have loved others before(it's you),

but i cant let you go, i cant turn back (it's you),

the moment my gaze began to burn(it's you),

the moment the nail was wedged deep into my heart(it's you),

without any regrets, i chose you(it's you),

yes, for me , it's you, oh, i

no matter what anyone any one says, it doesn't matter to me,even if anyone says bad things bout us, i'll look at only you,

even if i were to be born again, it's still only you for me,

(tic toc tic toc) even the times goes by. oh , i

even when i tell you i love you,

telling you thousands of times,

to make my heart burn and my dry lips worn out,

evevn if i were to be born again, it's still only you for me,

(tic toc tic toc) even the times goes by....

oh, only for you,

oh oh , only for you,

it's you...

there's no need for words.

it's just you for me(it's you),

even if u say it's too late,

it's just you for me(it's you),

though i know it's a wrong love(it's you),

i cant give up, i'll never be able to let u go(it's you),

my cold lips are calling for you(it's you),

hot ly, it's shouting , look for you(it's you),

even if u don't respond when i call u(it's you),

i'm still waiting for u....

it's you,

is only you for me.....

one minute one second

2009-07-03T19:57:00.000+08:00

I cant let go,

i see u no matter where i look...(my crumbling heart)

i cant hide,

baby for one minute, one second...

i cant let go,

i hear ur voice no matter where i go...(my broken heart)

i cant breath,

baby for one minute , one second...

even for one moment , one minute , one second...

You said u were having bad condition day,

you said your eyes were puffy,

and fell back asleep...

Sulking, i silently took off my jacket,

picked up the phone and ordered take out...

Closed the curtain, and without knowing how many hour passed

watching dvd's...(just u and me...)

the sound of ur breath as you leaned beside of me,

i thought that it was a good thing we didn't go out...

Ridiculously these thoughts still tormant me...

i unexpectedly remember the lame jokes you made and i fall apart,

moments that are realy no big deal upset me,

i suddenly remember the faces that you used to make and i break apart...

I cant let go,

i see u no matter where i look...(my crumbling heart)

i cant hide,

baby for one minute, one second...(even if time stops , my heart stops...)

i cant let go,

i hear ur voice no matter where i go...(my broken heart)

i cant breath,

baby for one minute , one second...

even for one moment , one minute , one second...

No matter wher u went,

at the restaurant right at the corner,

when u sat in your little corner,

you laid ur hands on the table and looking curiously,

when u were tired and yawned,

you kept the tears you wiped away,

and u would smile like an idiot,

showing ur cute face and say u are not tired...

whenever u drank water,

the pinky that u raised,

the watery eyes that could make me blind,

i thought your clumsy chopstik skills were charming,

your full lips,

i hoped it would be forever...

This is L.O.V. to the E,

this autobiographical memory twist my heart,

flips me upside down,

with never ending tears...

see love could sahke a hurricane,

the raindrops that blow against my feelings , one drop the little memories...

like how this little chatting between us , makes our memories became infinty,

eventhough it just a night,

the memories of us will never ending at here,

like the first kiss on cheeks

it's a while, but long lasting....

(damn,i love u...)

I cant let go,

i see u no matter where i look...(my crumbling heart)

i cant hide,

baby for one minute, one second...

i cant let go,

i hear ur voice no matter where i go...(my broken heart)

i cant breath,

baby for one minute , one second...

even for one moment , one minute , one second...

Even for one moment,(for one minute , one second)....

i cant let go,(the whisper that takes my breath away..)

for one moment...(our sweet secrets..)

for us who are as sad as our love was beautiful...(my tears always remember you..)

i cant let go,(our quirks and habbits..)

for one moment...(the beautiful moments..)

still for one moment,

for one minute, one second...

i wish i can turn back...(for one minute, one second...)

i love u...

an unforgetful memory at taiping(30/06/2009)

2009-07-01T15:58:00.000+08:00

29/06/2009 monday, today feeling is quite mix up.... i dono wether that i shuld be happy or i shuld be angry of myself... is a very confused feeling throughout the day...so i keep on find somehing to do... to keep myself busy for not thinking that much...

hm... today is the day i feel like i am not a good son for the first time... i feel like i very 'pan ni'.. but i do it with no regret at all... i mean at all!!! not a bit!!! cuz i do it with my own good and is for my future.. i realy believe wat i am doin now is the rite way... i nid to sacrifice something to gain something, life is like that... so i am happy and glad with wat i choose... no regret....

The thing that i choose is to go and meet my future, my frens and my love one....

So on that day, i try to finish all the stuff i havent finish yet, i clean the house and mop the floor... so that at least i help something for my parents, and to cover up my badness... lolz... sounds cheap... when everything was done, the times was bout to depart to the bus station liao... my parents were like very upset with i had choosed, but i cant change already. i cant do anything but to listen to my heart and kind of igonre them ... i am sooooooo bad... i don wan to... when the first step i walk out my door, the day started to rain dizzily, at first i was thinking that it jz for a while, but who knows, when we jz started the car and to drive out bout 2km, the rain drops heavily!!! and is kind of like thunder storm, the lightning was scary!! the worst thing ever comes next, my dads car broke down in half way, it cant moved at all, is very unlucky and is so weird that everything comes along together in the same time!! i started to tink that is it the god trying test me wether i can hold on with what i chose?? i keep on thinking.... then my bro drive another car to fetch us all... at that time i was trying to tink positively, and try not to tink the bad thing.. keep on holding on!! when we reach the bus station, my parents face dun look happy at all, they are upset with me and worry cuz the weather is terrible, they keep on asking y i choose today? then i told them , i am 21 years old, dun worry too much, i will take of myself. is time for me to board on the bus... is abouttime, 8.30pm, but suddenly the jpj come and check the bus driver... is so unfortunate, i was worry is it i choosen the wrong path?? but in the end, i don care anymore, i on bus bus now... jz go for it!! i am coming , taiping!!!

on the journey to taiping, i actually cant rest well, cuz i dono where the bus stop and when and i cant wait to meet K, cuz i nvr been there, so i keep on looking around, so that i dun miss the stop... 4am, finally i see taiping's tol station, hm... i tink is bout time to cal my fren,K, but mana tau, he waiting me at the bus station since 3something!!! i am so paiseh, cuz my bus reach the bus station at 4.30am!!!haiz... when i go out from the bus, i saw my fren waitin there, is so paiseh that time, but in the mean time, i am soooooooooooo happy till is hard to express the feeling.. i was giggling when i was in K's car. but i try to be as cool as funny as happy as i can. to be honest i am kind of shy person, but when i was with K, i am totally different! is so weird, but i like it!! K oso very kind and polite to me, but we also got argue in a good way la bit, since we two used to kacau and tease each other alot.. hehe... is so like paradise!!! then we stop at mamak stall to have a drink and chating for a while, i am so excited to be here!! then we plan alot of thing for the day... K list out the places we want to go later. but we went back to take a shower b4 we start the plan cuz is still in the dawn...

first station, we went to take br8fast at maxim dim sum!!! is nice!!! thx K!! then we chit chat for a long time and yum cha, i mean realy yum cha, we drink tie guan ying.. haha.. is sooo like senior citizens stuff.. but is ok with me and K...then after that we go for a movie, transformer 2:the rise of the fallen!! is so dam cool!!! i can say that , is my coolest situation ever in my life, watch with K is sooo, i cant imagine, is a very weird but happy feeling!!!then after that, we went to kim gary, as is our two favorite restaurant ever, we keep on chitchat nonstop and get to know more bout each other, and i found out that we two are so much similarity between us two!!! is almost like 99% same!!unbelievable!!! then after that, we went back home to take a rest, since K is absolute tired dy, wake up so early in the morning to wait for me, and somemore K is a 'sleeping pig' , hehe, to me la. lol.... after that we go for for our dinner at sushi king~ is enjoyable, and i cant imagine that in small town like taiping oso got sushi king and starbuck... hahaha.... after that, we go for a walk then go starbuck on9.... we have a drink while on9 at there, but we two never stop chitchatting for the whole day!!haha.. is like unstopable topic ever... everything also we can talk...then is about 12.30am.... i din realize that the time being with K passed so fast.... it feels like i only being with K for not more than one minute.... is so fast.... is a very hard feeling... i wan to stop the time but i cant... so we decided to go back home to rest earlier...cuz K is been like so tired, and sleepy , and blur blur... u can see the eyes and the expression are so cute... but K still say that very energetic... eh... i am not blind ok? i jz a bit dumb but no dumb till cant see ur the face...haha.. when we arrive home, the day is started to rain heavily, is so romantic situation... haha.... hm.... alot of unexpected things happen to me on that day.... i cant stop for recalling wat happen the whole day.... is been like paradise... to me with K... i cant stop my mind... i cant sleep eventhou i am dam tired, but the feeling the heartbeat is so like playing rollercoaster on that time... i cant express much... then we have a talk b4 we went to slp, of cuz K slp first lar, cuz .... haha.. is cute situation.. lolz... so... i oso fall asleep after K slp for a while...

when the alarms rang... i wish i din hear it!!, i wish that i can slp 4ever on K's bed... haha... i dun wish to go back.... i wan to be at there... 4ever and always... but that is jz a lie to ourself... the time is not goin to stop, bo bian but to wash up ourself, and go take br8fast b4 i depart... is a very hard time to me.... i bet K too... maybe i come to taiping is a major impact for K too.. i am sorry and thanks to K alot... my mind is all about K now... haha...i dun know how to show and express out my feeling on that time... is very hard and sour in the same time...theres alot of thing in my mind... i wan to speak out, but i cant...haiz....we go round the taiping lake , althou K not very familiar with the route lar, but still K brings me go round...hahaha...gao xiu...

i miss K alot.... cuz K treat me so good... althou we jz know each other for not long time... but K makes me feel very comfortable and peace and sooo... is hard to explain...i dono.... my bus will be depart on 12pm...K insist to accompany me till i onboard the bus... i feel bad cuz i know K is in very tired situation.... but i kind of happy and wish that K will not leave me 4ever...haha... is a very unrealistic world in my mind... then we chitchat in the car normally, as we used to till the times come.... i dun wan to go down from K's car... but i have to...haiz...**

i cant say out anything from my mind dy.... i feel like i cant breath, when i walk towards the bus... no one ever know what is the feeling that i facing now....

all i jz wanted to say to K is that i am realy thank you and appreciate for what u have given to me... althou is just for one day, but it feels like u gave me my life!!!thank you for everything, thank you for the sweet memory ...i "adore" the feeling...i "adore" u K.... u know wat i mean.. haha

so i leave taiping with an unforgetfull memory in my life.... althou is a small town... but the impact is major to me... a person can give something larger than we ever imagine...thank you.... K....i will never ever forget it....

my new life.(19/06/2009)

2009-06-28T12:14:00.000+08:00

19/06/2009

this is the day i found out that my life would never ever be the same again... i finally found a path that is suitable to me now and hope is forever...

There is a hand coming out from a bright sky reach towards me... and the smile on the face is so peaceful and so angelic... i never see anyone would ever smile at me like that accept my family... it makes me feel like i am in the heaven~ flying way up high to the cloud 9~ up up and away~

hm... i wonder who is it....? why am i getting all this treasure that i ever had in my 21 years in suddenlly way...? i wonder.... do i deserve this present, this hand? GOD , do i deserve it??pls give me a hint...

but i guess is the time for my own decision... i wont doubt it again!!! i will not ever waste what is given to me again!!! so i decided to reach to hand from the bright sky... Oh ! is u!! (K) i am so thankful to the god that give me a such expensive that money cant even buy it , present for me!!! i am so lucky!! when the first look at you... u melted my heart and my world.... i never felt that way... never ever before in my life... is a weird feeling... but 99% i can confirm is a happy feeling! i am happy that u to be with me....thanks for choosing and pick me... u changed my world... u changed my life ... u change me... in a good way... thank you~ i am so glad that i never give up on hope to GOD... thank you~

start from the day, 19/06/2009, the day we chat for the first time... the first sentence we say "hi,nice to meet u" , the first sms on that night, i knew that i am not going to have my life that i used to be again...that i hate so much... i am now the new me.. i have u and my family... i am happy than ever now... i love my life now...

this is my new life~