what should i do?

what should i do???

where should i go?

who i belong to?

what you want me to do??

what do you want from me??

i really dono what you really want me to do...

i don wan to guess anymore...

new sem new chapter of life...

12 aug 2010

it's been a while since the last drop at here...

this sem starts alot of new thing new experience for me....

1st,

i first time drive alone from penang to uum, and first time drive to campus!( feel happy and also feel worry bout going to spend more for this sem....)

2nd,

new roommate.... a sarawakian.... spent 3 weeks with him ... and still manage to survive... hope everything goes well...

(this sem starts in hell for me.... my heart cry for dono how many times.... everything goes so wrong in my path.... but finally i get up and stand strong... and see lots of new faces from those i knew for so long...)

3rd,

all the subject for this sem is so tiring.... and i have been chosen as the leader for many groups...

dun worry, i try my best....

4th,

first time try out as a model for a friend of mine, Ah Ma quenny loo... a pro photographer apprentice... support her~

5th,

hmm.... my life feel really empty.... i dun have friends that i can hang around... found out that all ppl around me are getting their own life partner.... and i am still here... din even step forward....

walking alone and stand alone in the corner... looking and enjoying others happiness.... wish everyone can last long forever... haha....

wandering around and no place to go or to hide.... this feel is so suffering yet is trying to make us stronger and tougher... this feeling no one ever feel... and i don wish anyone to feel that...

where am i now?? what am i doing now? what i do next? what i am doing for? where shud i go? who am i? who am i.....

this feeling, whos right, whos wrong, i already don't feel to discover it....

the more u love someone is going to be more harder to guess what is in their mind.....

520...

20/05/10

todays date is so nice... every couple sure likes this number... 520... means i love u in chinese...我爱你... this word is so simple but it means alot... a powerful word...

i am sure today those couple will have a romantic night out with their love one...

i so wish to too... sigh~~

bao bei's 22th birthday~

13/05/10

today was my bao bei's birthday!!! wuhu~~

POLC concept is using for this day~~haha

Planning: afternoon go for gym, night go for celebration at Black pearl~~

Organizing: ask my dad to fetch me to gym..( prepare for whole body ache... aiks!!><)

Leading: suppose to go buy a piece of cake for bao bei, but due to my lateness... aiks~~ all tak jadi and then siew siew fetch us all~ haha

Controlling: reach Black Pearl, and the place is so Texas~ the feel is quite good~ but when comes to menu, owh.... only one page of food choices????? aiks....

so we end up by ordering 3 fish and chips , and i order pork sausages with mashed potatoes which is my favorite~~ hehehe

but the drinks.... we look at the menu, only got 7 choices of drinks... all syrup, so we all order for different taste of syrup...

who knows... it was alcohol drinks mix with fruits! mine is the strongest liquor mix with bloody orange! lolx!!!

i don't drink alcohol unless is wine!

the food was ok, but the drinks to us is NOT OKAY! zzz...

Black Pearl~

Black Pearl~

fish and chips

pork sausages and mashed potatoes~

after we finish our dinner, and the alcohol drinks~

we decided to go beach to get some wind, as we are getting hotter and hotter after the alcohol!!! erg....

but we still SS as we used to lar~~ hahaha

me and bao bei~~

me and yoke sun~~

the drinks that makes us dizzy~~lolx~~

after beach we decide to go for a drive and go see those AQUA working~~ haha

thats the end of the day~~ what a full of entertainment day~~

two weeks study week...

my two weeks "holiday"....

stays at kuantan home~ sweet!! can slp on my own sweet bed!! my own pillow!! my own bolster!! and my own room!! can slp with the air-con~ cool~~

and the main purpose to come back home is to study and accompany my parents... trying to soften their burden ... ntg much i can do but AT LEAST i can help do the house chores. hehe~~

dono what to do~~ but actually there are lots of stuff waiting for me to complete... but i just dont have the mood to do anything.... what happen to me??? and my mood swing like wind everyday!!! shit! hate it!=(

i just ... dono what i want to do now...

i feel so... hmm...

so empty tonight...

ntg seems right...

dono where to fight...

trying to reach the light...

although the room is still bright...

feels like everything is so tight...

so cold in the heart in this lonely night...

praying for 2moro will be alright...

jia you jia you!! study lar!!! dun hiao here anymore~~

i must fulfill my words that i will at least take 3.3 above! erm!!

my new song's lyric..

我们的故事

花开始枯了，

也把我的心情慢慢的神枯了，

怎么了？

对花窃窃私语，

卿卿我我的像我和你一直以来的闹情趣，

为何不能一起，

把我的心情弄得杂乱无章的，

花也似似的流下泪，

花私自的把天空感动了，

哭着诉说好心痛，

故事翻不开次页，

亲爱，我真的好想念你，

不管一天两天三天几天都想着你，

我们相遇就像千载难逢一样的，

难得机缘好好珍惜，

不放开，

再怎么样也不放开，

你的手我也不会放开，

我们的故事不会有结局那一页。。。

思念虽然痛苦，

但这小小考验我们不能输的，

绝不会时写时辍，

力图写出完美无穷的页，

怀把泪滴滴流下，

湿了每一页也要。。。

亲爱，我真的好想念你，

不管一天两天三天几天都想着你，

我们相遇就像千载难逢一样的，

难得机缘好好珍惜，

不放开，

再怎么样也不放开，

你的手我也不会放开，

我们的故事不会有结局那一页。。。

狂风暴雨，遍体鳞伤，

心里那本书不怕坏灭，

应为我们坚固的爱保护心里那本书。。。

亲爱， 你的爱把我撞到，

不管一秒两秒三秒几秒都爱着你，

就算我们只是短短的那几个月，

你的爱来得太雄烈，

停不了，

再怎么也停不了，

你不爱我，我也停不了，

因为这就是我们的爱情的故事。。。

hope u guys enjoy it!!! i know a bit childish lar... but my mandarin improve liao leh... i got do research de lor!!haha..^^

penang trip 7-9/12/09

Penang trip begin~~ hehe...

board on bus at klang bus terminal, cuz go meet friends there.

i am going to penang to do my braces de... then sun bian have go there jalan-jalan cari makan lor~ haha...this is the journey of my 3 days trip~ hehe...

7/12/09

after finish my braces, we go kuan zhi jiao there have our dinner lu~ hehe... but no photos lar... forget to took... aiks...:(

8/12/09

2nd day of the trip

wake up early morning and then we went for dim sum as breakfast at steamboat house.

all of this, we two person makan all... erg.... full full!!

After that, we go meet my fren, purple at KOMTAR, then we went to batu feringgi, the hard rock hotel and the beach there lu~~

me and micheal jackson statue~hehe^^

me and purple lu~~

syok sendiri there lor~~ hahaha...

batu feringgi beach~ haha

hmm... pretend to be emo there~

hard rock cafe lu~ all the drinks are expensive!!!

hard rock cafe~~ yea baby!! nice place~~

my mocha... the only drink i afford to drink... aiks.. kelian...

sigh~

purple, me and vchin lu~

again~ me and purple lor~

after that we went to The Ship there take some photo then we head back to gurney there have our dinner... name winter warmer~ hehe

9/12/09

thats my 3 day journey lor....

after that i went to klang to help my friends cousin work for one day and go makan makan lor~~ hehe...

thats all for now lor~ adios~~