i am doom..

isit loving someone is a crime???

isit caring someone is a sin???

then send me to hell,

cuz i done lots of crime and i made alot of sins in my life....

i just cant understand???!!!! why???!!!

what is happening???

i cant shout i cant cry...

what am i suppose to do now.... what...

lucifer, u just doom me.... u just cruelly doom me to hell.... y dun u just kill me instead of torturing me?

what should i do?

what should i do???

where should i go?

who i belong to?

what you want me to do??

what do you want from me??

i really dono what you really want me to do...

i don wan to guess anymore...

new sem new chapter of life...

12 aug 2010

it's been a while since the last drop at here...

this sem starts alot of new thing new experience for me....

1st,

i first time drive alone from penang to uum, and first time drive to campus!( feel happy and also feel worry bout going to spend more for this sem....)

2nd,

new roommate.... a sarawakian.... spent 3 weeks with him ... and still manage to survive... hope everything goes well...

(this sem starts in hell for me.... my heart cry for dono how many times.... everything goes so wrong in my path.... but finally i get up and stand strong... and see lots of new faces from those i knew for so long...)

3rd,

all the subject for this sem is so tiring.... and i have been chosen as the leader for many groups...

dun worry, i try my best....

4th,

first time try out as a model for a friend of mine, Ah Ma quenny loo... a pro photographer apprentice... support her~

5th,

hmm.... my life feel really empty.... i dun have friends that i can hang around... found out that all ppl around me are getting their own life partner.... and i am still here... din even step forward....

walking alone and stand alone in the corner... looking and enjoying others happiness.... wish everyone can last long forever... haha....

wandering around and no place to go or to hide.... this feel is so suffering yet is trying to make us stronger and tougher... this feeling no one ever feel... and i don wish anyone to feel that...

where am i now?? what am i doing now? what i do next? what i am doing for? where shud i go? who am i? who am i.....

this feeling, whos right, whos wrong, i already don't feel to discover it....

the more u love someone is going to be more harder to guess what is in their mind.....