end of FEB

24/02/2011

so fast time passed by~~~ is just like u just finish sang a song and u passed 2 months of 2011 dy...

i wish i can have a very beautiful song to sing throughout the year~~ this two months was a very very difficult and confusing path to go through. i lost my ways so many times, i lost myself, keep trying and trying to escape so many times, but still i keep telling myself "keep urself together and u will be fine" and i am still trying now, slightly better, i think. ^^

start from zero, sounds like easy, but its hard when at first u have like everything u need, but in sudden all gone, and u drop to the bottom, u have to climb up once again, by urself. sometimes i do feel like giving up, but i realize i still have things i cant put down, my family and my friends. the older i am, the more important family and frens i realize. i love u daddy and mummy, brother, soulmate, buddy, my "girlfren", and my newly met frens~~ u guys do help me alot. i love u guys~

met a killer lecturer recently, its really tension when enter his class, but he do recognize me. is it good or bad, it depends how i think and how i take it. i take it good cuz i think that he do really take attention on me, thats really a good sign to start my new life. i promise i will do well, sir. many subjects that needs my lead to be done, somehow is very stressful but is the right chance for me to learn, i am going to outside messy world soon, is time for me to be prepared. good luck to u BRYANT CHUA! i know u can work it out somehow~

financial, life, academic, all trying to push me to the edge of the hills, but lucky i do have some strength to push it back and i do have a parachute that always catch me whenever i fall. i hope the parachute is in a good condition la, no hole or any defective la. XD

there is a song i really like and motivated always~~ pink, f*ckin perfect~

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!

Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty please, if you ever feel like you're nothing
You are perfect to me....

thats all for now~~~ see ya later~~