Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Independent


20/09/2011
am i dependent? or am i not?
well, last time i admit i am dependent.
everything "daddy" here "daddy" there,
but now, i've grown up alot.
most of the times, i do things my own.
i dont ask for helps if i am able to.
although i might looks like i am still very dependent person,
well, u wont believe what have i done all this while, alone.
yea, maybe to others this is normal, but for me, i am a guy that never leaves his footstep alone out from his family.
my first time take flight, i was alone. i dono where to go and what should i do, i made some stupid questions to strangers, but i did it, on my own.
i travel ups and down to almost every part in malaysia, alone.
i even drive back to KL from my uni, alone.
i eat, i sleep, i play, i walk, i dance, i live, all by myself.
i didn't complaint.
i do things never ask for companion if i am able.
what else should i do to prove that i am independent?
Perhaps, i should go travel to another country, Alone i guess.

tonight there's a zero fare. i guess i wana go a place, where can find my inner peace. out from others... although, i do admit, i wan to go with my loves one... i like to travel with my loves one... but i guess i am not going to have the permit to do so yet...

Hm.... decision... might be going to Bali alone i guess. ^^
will see how tonight. ^^

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Well, i am just not good enough.

03/09/2011

Been working for a month in PB, and i already started to feel the pressure... no one knows what i faced and how they expect on me... the more expectation, the more pressure i get... i am new here, please don't push me to hard, u, u, u and u will just made me suffocate...
I am being lecture in the office, being lecture in my home, and i don't need anymore lecture from others already... i had enough... i don't need anymore nagging...

And one more very particular things i really care about, which is TRUST. Once the trust is gone, i will be gone too. All this while for 23 years, i never gain any trust from anyone.Its like my shadow that will not leave me even a second, DOUBT is my curse i guess. Its not like i am giving up easily, i am still trying... trying very hard... but in this month... i guess i lost my faith in myself... thats why i broke ppl's heart.. i cant take it anymore... i need a break.

U can said anything u wan, i am weak, i am sucks in relationship, i dun deserve anyone and what-so-ever. Yea, maybe u are right, why don't u think of why i will treat u like that? Well, some-others cant really see their wrong side, they will always win. i don't blame them, everyone have their flaws...

ARG!!!! WHATEVER LA!! LIFE SHOULDN'T BE THIS SORROW! LIFE GOES ON!!
GET OVER IT AND SCREW THE PAST!

focus with my works, need to learn more, i got a great job, and a great position.i am grateful for that, thanks to u my dear god, i should not complaint anymore. Any to nurse a grievance, just suck it up and swallow it and digest it and fart it, everything will be fine again.
GAMBATEH!!


歌手:

田馥甄

專輯:

My Love

歌名:

還是要幸福


不確定就別親吻
感情很容易毀了一個人
一個人若不夠狠
愛淡了不離不棄多殘忍
你留下來的垃圾
我一天一天總會丟完的
我甚至真心真意的祝福
永恆在你的身上先發生
你還是要幸福
你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕
別跟著我
銘心 刻骨
你還是要幸福
我才能確定我還得很清楚
確定自己再也不會佔據
你的篇幅
明天 開始
這一切都結束還我鑰匙的備份
我覺得再見可以很單純
我甚至真心真意的祝福
永恆在你的身上先發生
你還是要幸福
你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕
別跟著我
銘心 刻骨
你還是要幸福
我才能確定我還得很清楚
確定自己再也不會佔據
你的篇幅
明天 開始
這一切都結束
你還是要幸福
你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕
別跟著我
銘心 刻骨
你如果很幸福
半夜的簡訊我就無需回覆
因為你的悲喜已經有了 容身之處
我也 能有 最純粹的孤獨
最孤獨的孤獨

Love u Hebe~