Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Life On Line show

Life on Line show aka LOLshow
its all about the discussion of the social network nowadays, pros and cons of course, such as twitter, facebook and so on. those social network nowadays is a way for people to shout out information and latest news, but some are using it in a wrong ways. like i, i am using it for chit-chatting with old or new friends. i do need social sites! XD

i found out this show from niki cheong as i followed him in twitter, he is cool guy~ haha


LOLshow episode 11:

this is the online show, from them, John Lim, Niki Cheong, David Lian and David Wang.

http://zineradio.com/lolshow/
the link for the LOLshow sites.



sleek and slim package that is the BlackBerry Curve 9300 3G:

  • 2MP camera with flash
  • GPS
  • WiFi & 3G
  • Optical trackpad + media keys
  • BlackBerry messenger
i wish to win this so much, and i want to present it to my beloved brother as a new year and christmas present! hopefully i can win it!!! XD

and last but not least, merry christmas and happy new year!!

Monday, December 27, 2010

left 4 days for 2010

2010, soon will say goodbye and welcome 2011.

2010, phew... what a dramatic journey i had through out this year. many things happened in my life, my campus life, my love life, friends around me, my part time job, and so on~

2010, campus life of mine, hmmm, caryn left us and went to china for internship, our dance group in a mess. kinda sad, and the dance mates of mine started to make all the nonsense attitude. pissed me off actually, and i have a feeling to just quited and dance on my own. Oh!! and my roommate! i changed a roommate which makes me so in dilemma at first, as the rumors said that he is a very problematic guy, he smoke and play music in the room like no one in his world! but after living with him for 4 months, he is a very kind guy that treat me well~~ even treat me makan! haha. so rumors are always the fake one~ learned a lesson from that!

2010, my love life, a mess lor~ break up lor, gave ppl dumped lor~ and got lots of annoying flies around me! hate it! sad story huh, but nvm, maybe will have another better one waiting for me in front of me, HOPEFULLY! haha XD

2010, friends around me, all the fox tail came out right away when they know i drove my car to campus, so obvious that they just want to use me, haiz.... whatever.... but there are some friends that really care about me, i just noticed that i had abandoned them since i pak tor, this is so wrong, realize that there are still many ppl around cares for me! u suckers, i dun deserve u, i deserve better! (my ex) XD!! i love my best fren ever! Ms Wan Yi!!! haha!! (she will kill me if she saw this!) and i met a best one, a very very very, i mean VERY nice person on earth!!! my SOULMATE, that treat me like a superb!!! i am so touch!! even though we met on net but he is indeed a guy that knows me well, maybe he is the one that used to be my best mate previous life. haha!!! i am so so happy!!!
futhermore, i met my buddy, who is a great person, met the same prob as me, thats y i am his buddy~ haha! so many nice one appeared in my life in a sudden after i break up. my sight on this earth is wider now~ thanks to u! it shows that love is not everything, i still have family and friends that love me so much!!

2010, my part time job, hmmm, many weird weird things happened too~ work as music man as a part time job, first day already being warned by MACP, i am going to be jailed if i played music without any licence!! shit that organizer!! but its an experience, take it as a lesson. (it trilled me for a moment!)

2010..... what a journey, up and down. playing me non stop, but life is like that de la~~ face it bravely, and will see the beauty on the other side! wuhu~~ continue to planning and prepare for my dream ahead! startin little by little!

2010, can i wish something for my coming 2011? i wan a new laptop! pls! XD
i promise i will treat her like my best partner always!! pls pls pls~~ XD

this is my life on 2010. sweet, sour, bitter, spicy, all mixed up. my life is so happening! XD

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

same old me~

hmm.... i tout i grow stronger....
but seems like i still the same old me, waiting for something that is not going to be real...
so naive, tout that the world will treat me nicer, seems like its just my fantasy, my dream...
and i am still stupidly waiting for it....
is a test, hopefully i can get thru this and have a better life!

i wan to do wat i want before i am 28! i wan learn dance, i wan to be air-steward, go get a interior design cert, and travel around the world, taste all the food!! hopefully i can fulfill my dream soon la~~ i think if i pass this test, i might be a very strong and different person!

ganbateh-desune~~~

Friday, October 22, 2010

i just wana be a good fren ma~

aiyoyo~~ now a days a, too good or too kind will be a crime lor~~~
ppl will nvr appreciated what we done good and care for them, but they will even hate us wo~~ and angry us tim....
hmm... what happen to this era a?? the ppl nowadays? mutate dy or wat??
aiyoyo~~~ i just wan to cheer u guys up ma~~~ but manatau become annoyance and even ignore me liao... hmm...
u tout that concern someone is easy ma?? is hard lor~~~ we purposely make ourself worry for u guys, and cheering u guys up!
i am a clown, i will always do anything that can be ,like cheering u guys up de ma~ but now, i get more and more ppl hates me... i wonder y, am i too concern u guys and make u guys feel irritating? hmmm...

just all of all, i just wana be a good fren and a good buddy to u guys only~~~ not going to harm u guys ma~~

Monday, September 27, 2010

there is no more love for me...

drop again and again...
i have no more place for me to land...
no more place that is safe for me anymore...
i dun deserve anything, dun even have the rights to stand up again...

can i know who else i can lay my head on, and cry?
i dun have... i dun have anything now... i am lost... and i am empty...
is all empty now....

ntg left for me anymore....

no more love for me anymore...
i dun deserve it anymore....

Monday, September 20, 2010

恐高症。。

高空弹跳的刺激,
我不想听,
没兴趣冒险的游戏,
当你要请我,
为何轻易答应,
你的语气让我安心。。。

摩天轮上的夜景,
浪漫旋律,
在空中我忘了恐惧,
当你亲吻我,
分散了注意力,
怕高的我看见星星。。。

你让天空失去距离,
我让我离开了质疑,
往上爬的爱情,
告别回忆我在爱着你,
闭上眼睛把你抱紧,
幸福几乎变零距离,
你是我唯一勇敢的原因。。。

往上爬的那阶梯,
我不相信,
可以忘了爬高恐惧,
当你抓紧我,
不停的爬上去,
让我感受天堂空气。。。

你让天空失去距离,
我让我离开了质疑,
往上爬的爱情,
告别回忆我在爱着你,
闭上眼睛把你抱紧,
幸福几乎变零距离,
你是我唯一勇敢的原因。。。

你让天空如此靠近,
也让我掉无底洞里,
往下跌深下去,
只能往回忆里寻找你,
张开眼睛看不见你,
幸福几乎离我远去,
你又让我回去恐高症里。。。

你让天空如此远去,
我让自己不再相信,
怕高也怕爱情,
被你丢弃的心变恐惧。。。

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

i lost to my own tears....

what a failure am i....
own tears also cant handle, how to handle others that i love?

heart so sour and so pain.... when knowing that there is no one in ur family that support and understand what you are thinking....
it makes me feel like i am nothing but a useless person in the world...
i know i am a lazy person but, i do observe things all around me... dun said i never take initiative...
i mention my dreams before, just that u guys never support...

i dun talk much is not that i dun wan to share, is because i am scared i will be being poured cold water again...

today, once again... i kena poured cold water again....
i lost all my control and lose to my own tears... which i hate so much!!!
i never drop a single tear in front of them... but today, i failed....
am i a failure production in this world?

Sunday, September 5, 2010

because of you...

I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you
I’ve lost everything because of you
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?
It also rained on that day
You’ve stared at me wordlessly
You’ve stared at nothing else but me
Those trembling gazes,
And the awkwardly forced smile
Speaks of our separation...
Then I cry silently and wordlessly
Cause I want to stay next to u
My luv is true, wanna go back 2 when I was with u
I miss u… I need u…
Even in my dreams I’m wit u..
I miss u… I need u…
Rewind back the time
I wanna kiss u again ma boy…
My heart aches
It’s too much to bear
And where are you? (I cried a lot)
Can’t live without you
Please come back to me
And stay with me....

i am still me...

i am still me...
the old stupid me...
just with lots of experience....
know how to be better for our love one...
i used to be give up very fast...
i used to be very weak...
but now...

i am going to be stronger...
i am going to be tougher...
i am going to be more hardworking...
because i am going to wait till the day u come back to me again...
i am going to wait till the day to hold ur hand again...
because i love u...

Sunday, August 29, 2010

i am doom..

isit loving someone is a crime???
isit caring someone is a sin???
then send me to hell,
cuz i done lots of crime and i made alot of sins in my life....

i just cant understand???!!!! why???!!!
what is happening???
i cant shout i cant cry...
what am i suppose to do now.... what...

lucifer, u just doom me.... u just cruelly doom me to hell.... y dun u just kill me instead of torturing me?

Saturday, August 14, 2010

what should i do?

what should i do???
where should i go?
who i belong to?
what you want me to do??
what do you want from me??
i really dono what you really want me to do...

i don wan to guess anymore...

Thursday, August 12, 2010

new sem new chapter of life...

12 aug 2010
it's been a while since the last drop at here...
this sem starts alot of new thing new experience for me....

1st,
i first time drive alone from penang to uum, and first time drive to campus!( feel happy and also feel worry bout going to spend more for this sem....)

2nd,
new roommate.... a sarawakian.... spent 3 weeks with him ... and still manage to survive... hope everything goes well...

(this sem starts in hell for me.... my heart cry for dono how many times.... everything goes so wrong in my path.... but finally i get up and stand strong... and see lots of new faces from those i knew for so long...)

3rd,
all the subject for this sem is so tiring.... and i have been chosen as the leader for many groups...
dun worry, i try my best....

4th,
first time try out as a model for a friend of mine, Ah Ma quenny loo... a pro photographer apprentice... support her~

5th,
hmm.... my life feel really empty.... i dun have friends that i can hang around... found out that all ppl around me are getting their own life partner.... and i am still here... din even step forward....
walking alone and stand alone in the corner... looking and enjoying others happiness.... wish everyone can last long forever... haha....

wandering around and no place to go or to hide.... this feel is so suffering yet is trying to make us stronger and tougher... this feeling no one ever feel... and i don wish anyone to feel that...

where am i now?? what am i doing now? what i do next? what i am doing for? where shud i go? who am i? who am i.....

this feeling, whos right, whos wrong, i already don't feel to discover it....
the more u love someone is going to be more harder to guess what is in their mind.....

Thursday, May 20, 2010

520...

20/05/10

todays date is so nice... every couple sure likes this number... 520... means i love u in chinese...我爱你... this word is so simple but it means alot... a powerful word...
i am sure today those couple will have a romantic night out with their love one...
i so wish to too... sigh~~

Friday, May 14, 2010

bao bei's 22th birthday~


13/05/10
today was my bao bei's birthday!!! wuhu~~
POLC concept is using for this day~~haha
Planning: afternoon go for gym, night go for celebration at Black pearl~~
Organizing: ask my dad to fetch me to gym..( prepare for whole body ache... aiks!!><)
Leading: suppose to go buy a piece of cake for bao bei, but due to my lateness... aiks~~ all tak jadi and then siew siew fetch us all~ haha
Controlling: reach Black Pearl, and the place is so Texas~ the feel is quite good~ but when comes to menu, owh.... only one page of food choices????? aiks....
so we end up by ordering 3 fish and chips , and i order pork sausages with mashed potatoes which is my favorite~~ hehehe
but the drinks.... we look at the menu, only got 7 choices of drinks... all syrup, so we all order for different taste of syrup...
who knows... it was alcohol drinks mix with fruits! mine is the strongest liquor mix with bloody orange! lolx!!!
i don't drink alcohol unless is wine!
the food was ok, but the drinks to us is NOT OKAY! zzz...


Black Pearl~

Black Pearl~

fish and chips

pork sausages and mashed potatoes~

after we finish our dinner, and the alcohol drinks~
we decided to go beach to get some wind, as we are getting hotter and hotter after the alcohol!!! erg....
but we still SS as we used to lar~~ hahaha

me and bao bei~~

me and yoke sun~~


the drinks that makes us dizzy~~lolx~~

after beach we decide to go for a drive and go see those AQUA working~~ haha
thats the end of the day~~ what a full of entertainment day~~

Friday, April 9, 2010

two weeks study week...


my two weeks "holiday"....
stays at kuantan home~ sweet!! can slp on my own sweet bed!! my own pillow!! my own bolster!! and my own room!! can slp with the air-con~ cool~~
and the main purpose to come back home is to study and accompany my parents... trying to soften their burden ... ntg much i can do but AT LEAST i can help do the house chores. hehe~~




dono what to do~~ but actually there are lots of stuff waiting for me to complete... but i just dont have the mood to do anything.... what happen to me??? and my mood swing like wind everyday!!! shit! hate it!=(

i just ... dono what i want to do now...

i feel so... hmm...
so empty tonight...
ntg seems right...
dono where to fight...
trying to reach the light...
although the room is still bright...
feels like everything is so tight...
so cold in the heart in this lonely night...
praying for 2moro will be alright...


jia you jia you!! study lar!!! dun hiao here anymore~~
i must fulfill my words that i will at least take 3.3 above! erm!!


Wednesday, February 17, 2010

my new song's lyric..

我们的故事

花开始枯了,

也把我的心情慢慢的神枯了,

怎么了?

对花窃窃私语,

卿卿我我的像我和你一直以来的闹情趣,

为何不能一起,

把我的心情弄得杂乱无章的,

花也似似的流下泪,

花私自的把天空感动了,

哭着诉说好心痛,

故事翻不开次页,

亲爱,我真的好想念你,

不管一天两天三天几天都想着你,

我们相遇就像千载难逢一样的,

难得机缘好好珍惜,

不放开,

再怎么样也不放开,

你的手我也不会放开,

我们的故事不会有结局那一页。。。

思念虽然痛苦,

但这小小考验我们不能输的,

绝不会时写时辍,

力图写出完美无穷的页,

怀把泪滴滴流下,

湿了每一页也要。。。

亲爱,我真的好想念你,

不管一天两天三天几天都想着你,

我们相遇就像千载难逢一样的,

难得机缘好好珍惜,

不放开,

再怎么样也不放开,

你的手我也不会放开,

我们的故事不会有结局那一页。。。

狂风暴雨,遍体鳞伤,

心里那本书不怕坏灭,

应为我们坚固的爱保护心里那本书。。。

亲爱, 你的爱把我撞到,

不管一秒两秒三秒几秒都爱着你,

就算我们只是短短的那几个月,

你的爱来得太雄烈,

停不了,

再怎么也停不了,

你不爱我,我也停不了,

因为这就是我们的爱情的故事。。。

hope u guys enjoy it!!! i know a bit childish lar... but my mandarin improve liao leh... i got do research de lor!!haha..^^