is just not enough yet...

29/08/09

not enough... just not enough....

the way i am now... is just not enough yet... still have alot that need to improve...

since the day (29/08/09) , i found out that... i am still ... not good enough yet...

i am so, useless and so down that time when ... erm... i cant do anything but staring at it drop out into this world...

but...

trust me...

i will improve and enhance myself to be the one...

the one that always be there when needed,

the one to wipe all the sadness,

the one to lend out the shoulders for the tears to land on,

the one to be trust worthy for anything,

i will be the one...

believe me and trust me that i will be the one...

photography session for moonfest charity nite 2009~

27/08/09

photography session. i am the one to in charge for all the beraeu photograph session... is so challenging... but overall.. i manage to overcome it and proved that i am capable to do it!!!wakaka...happy~hope that those photo that have been capture will be in good quality lar.. hope that MT and all the committee will like the result~hehe^^

apa lar... y all point at me wo... because of i am a photographer ma???haha...

gao xiu lor~

our bereau ~special task~there is 3 more malay committee that can't

attend due to berbuka puasa.lolz

special task~ boys only...

(ops, y suddenly feel that i look a bit like wearing super junior their cloth geh??)

haha...

free pose~ lolz...

still have long way to go~ lolz.. hope that everything will be just fine as planed....haha..

moonfest charity trip 2009(21/08/09)

21/08/09 friday....

this the day i have abandoned my important day...

although this trip is my big project thou....

hmm.... very complicated feeling on that day...

but ... let just skip the feeling of mine ba... focus on the trip lu...^^

5.30am... need to wake up from my lovely bed and so wish to just hide inside the blanket , slack on the bed ~ but... bo bian.. need to wash up and prepare , as i am the one to in charge for my laluan... tension , i mean really tension ! lolz... i have to bring the breads, 70 pack of gardenia's bread!!! and t-shirt for the committee!!!

so heavy man!!! lucky i got my friend helped me~phew...

6.45am.. gather all the committee and brief them about the jobs and the group .

overall my laluan is the most smooth one lar, paiseh.. but the fact is my laluan is the most efficient and most fast to settle all up de.. although i am really a shy and soft spoken guy. but still i manage to control!!! cool~

we went to an orphanage house which located at sik, kedah. 2 hours driving from alor setar.

when we arrive there, those children were like so happy waiting for us, all of them were standing outside there waiting... we divide into groups and divide jobs . i am the whole day camera man~ but still i will help others that are in need lar.. hehe^^...

this is our committee photo at ADIK...

just a simple random photo that we take during the break with the orphanage.

after ADIK there, we went to an old folks house which located at a place called pokok sena. the helpers there are so friendly, and they even cooked some food for us!!! which is very delicious!!!hehe^^ and i am very hungry that time~ 4pm liao... lolz..(haven't took my lunch and breakfast.... as the food at the ADIK there not enough, so have to let all the committee and the orphan eat...) we help to clean the place around the house, and make tang yuan with the senior citizens there... although is just short moment with them... but they are happy as i can see on their face...

didn't have any photos... cause my camera out of battery liao... lolz... sien...

even though, is a very tiring day, and there are few problems we met during the trip, still is a very meaningful day for us, i bet all of us thinks that way~ thanks ya , to all the committee~ thanks for helping to run this trip smoothly and gives love to the orphan and the senior citizens...

a dinner with family at east grill~(19/08/09)

19th of august 2009.

today is a big day actually... is the 2nd month i am in the new me condition!! wuhu!! to be honest, i am half sad and half happy...

the happy one is that i am glad and i am with the new me now!!! i am so appreciated what is with me rite now...

the sad one is that... i cant celebrate this special day with what i hope so much... i am so sad with it actually... i really wana celebrate with the plan i have made...but due to the CHARITY TRIP for the UUM's mpp moonfest charity night 2009... i have to back early...haiz... sad...

BUT , i try to make myself happy by asking my dad to bring to a place which is quite nice enviroment and the food is quite delightful. at least i can have the good dine in a romantic place...

so let's take a short tour to see the food and dishes we order lu...

east grill's nasi pataya~small amount but the taste is not bad.

my chocolate milkshake~ sweet!yea~^^

hmm...

this the Today Special main course, grill chicken with spagetti in carssanee sauce~

(i tink i spell right lar..haha.)

the taste is yummy!! ^^

this is the enviroment in the restaurant lu... ok rite?? hehe^^

after the dinner, take the 9pm bus back to the jungle again... which i realy dun wan to... sigh... i miss my night cuz of the trip... so in a dissapointment mood that day... make me so down.. but look forward to the next big day!

the 2nd months of my new life(19/08/09)

19/08/09

this is the 2nd month of my new life.... is a big change for me... I MEAN REALY BIG CHANGE!!!

i change alot... i finally found the life that is really gift for me... my days filled with love and happiness started from the 19th of june 2009... two months back then... i found myself, i found my happiness, i found my present, i found my love, i found my life.... i am so appreciate it so much till is hardly express out by words... all i ever wanted to say now is that...thank u for everything... thank u for saving me from the dark(which is very dark back then , i hate it so much, but there is no one ever know it...thank u for saving me out from the hell)... thank u for letting me have the new me now... thank you for giving me this chance to love and to be loved.... thank you...

this word really do mean alot me...although it do look very simple and normal...but is full with meaning...

deeply from a heart of mine...

my bro convocation on 09/08/09

09/08/09

hm... a big day!!!! a very big day for my bro, my parent and of course me!!!haha... this means alot to my bro... he graduate lea!!! wakaka...so proud of him...

this is how the day start, erm...

ya!! ok , at first i went to klcc to have a walk and take my lunch there, manhattan fish market, erm...

the taste diff from the penang which i love it so dam much!!! but klcc branch is a bit... cant say is disaster, but jz not as nice as what i ate before lor...

i have to go klcc first as i am not allowed to go into the hall with my parents during the graduation session at MCA....and i got mission to do!!! that is to meet up my bro girlfriend and excort her to my bro!!!

she wants to give my bro a surprise!!! sure i have to be the perfect one to help her ma... but so paiseh... i dono how to go to the MCA building from klcc... althou i have ask the information counter... haiz... paiseh lor... then lucky she's friend know the place...

when we reached there, i was like sweating like hell!!! and so gan zeong as i dono which flower should i buy for my bro... hm... at last i ask that flower guy choose one for me... red rose!! hehe.

then i wait alone at the front door, as my bro's GF want to hide up and give him surprise ma... so i will be the one to give them signal when my bro come out....

one hour passed... still havent come out yet!!! erg... my leg were so dam tired as i stand there with no place for me to sit, my shoulder was so dam pain as i begging my backpack which is about 10kg weight!!!! erm... around that amount lar, i din go measure..lol... and i am dam thirsty lor.... din bring any drinks to cool myself...

Finally , my bro called me, and ask me where am i... around 4.45pm... see him with the 'jubah', i am so happy!! my bro graduate liao!!! wuhu!!! he is my one and only bro i have lea!!! sure i am so proud of him!!! as i follow him since i was small... i bet my parents would be way much more happy than me lor..keke...

i wish i can graduate faster... lolz... hope that i can graduate smoothly as plan lor... hope .. lets jz pray and hope lor... hehe...

i am a pig...

i feel like crying now.... as i fail myself.... i was given a mission that is very important to me, but i failed.... my heart is crying now.... hope everything is ok... but my D din reply the msg i sent.. i hope D is not angry with me... but for sure i cant forgive myself... as i promise myself, this is the first and the last liao!!! i wont ever let myself do the same mistake again..... i am sorry D...

1st of aug 2009

01/08/2009 saturday... 7.05am.. my alarm start ringing, can't believe that i actually can wake up this early with just one alarm!!! is so shock for me!! haha^^ but i can wake up cuz of some mission i need to be done for someone de~haha. 7.10am i drive to the beach which is the famous beach in kuantan, teluk cempedak, just me alone with my "lao por" mp3...hehe... suddenly feel so energetic as i usually will be a zombie whenever my class is on 8am de , even 9.30am class!!! but 2day i am so alive!! walao!! so geng wo the "magic thing" can works!! wuhu~ i walk and take some pic with my cheap camera phone which is only 3.2mp... but can see ok dy lar.. hehe...actually i was thinking bout walking to the TC2 ,the second part of the TC, but i do not dare to pass the bridge as there is bunch of my dad 'anak angkat' (monkeys) waiting for their next target!!! erg!! so ... i just turn away and go to mcD buy some hash brown and fillet-o-fish , with a hot tea~

'taan' some hot tea at mcd after a walk on the beach~

eating hash brown~ which is our favorite food~potatoes!!

the bridge to TC2, haiz... not dare to pass there as is too 'dangerous' to walk thru the bridge alone!!!haha^^