Independent

20/09/2011

am i dependent? or am i not?

well, last time i admit i am dependent.

everything "daddy" here "daddy" there,

but now, i've grown up alot.

most of the times, i do things my own.

i dont ask for helps if i am able to.

although i might looks like i am still very dependent person,

well, u wont believe what have i done all this while, alone.

yea, maybe to others this is normal, but for me, i am a guy that never leaves his footstep alone out from his family.

my first time take flight, i was alone. i dono where to go and what should i do, i made some stupid questions to strangers, but i did it, on my own.

i travel ups and down to almost every part in malaysia, alone.

i even drive back to KL from my uni, alone.

i eat, i sleep, i play, i walk, i dance, i live, all by myself.

i didn't complaint.

i do things never ask for companion if i am able.

what else should i do to prove that i am independent?

Perhaps, i should go travel to another country, Alone i guess.

tonight there's a zero fare. i guess i wana go a place, where can find my inner peace. out from others... although, i do admit, i wan to go with my loves one... i like to travel with my loves one... but i guess i am not going to have the permit to do so yet...

Hm.... decision... might be going to Bali alone i guess. ^^

will see how tonight. ^^

Well, i am just not good enough.

03/09/2011

Been working for a month in PB, and i already started to feel the pressure... no one knows what i faced and how they expect on me... the more expectation, the more pressure i get... i am new here, please don't push me to hard, u, u, u and u will just made me suffocate...

I am being lecture in the office, being lecture in my home, and i don't need anymore lecture from others already... i had enough... i don't need anymore nagging...

And one more very particular things i really care about, which is TRUST. Once the trust is gone, i will be gone too. All this while for 23 years, i never gain any trust from anyone.Its like my shadow that will not leave me even a second, DOUBT is my curse i guess. Its not like i am giving up easily, i am still trying... trying very hard... but in this month... i guess i lost my faith in myself... thats why i broke ppl's heart.. i cant take it anymore... i need a break.

U can said anything u wan, i am weak, i am sucks in relationship, i dun deserve anyone and what-so-ever. Yea, maybe u are right, why don't u think of why i will treat u like that? Well, some-others cant really see their wrong side, they will always win. i don't blame them, everyone have their flaws...

ARG!!!! WHATEVER LA!! LIFE SHOULDN'T BE THIS SORROW! LIFE GOES ON!!

GET OVER IT AND SCREW THE PAST!

focus with my works, need to learn more, i got a great job, and a great position.i am grateful for that, thanks to u my dear god, i should not complaint anymore. Any to nurse a grievance, just suck it up and swallow it and digest it and fart it, everything will be fine again.

GAMBATEH!!

歌手：

田馥甄

專輯：

My Love

歌名：

還是要幸福

不確定就別親吻

感情很容易毀了一個人

一個人若不夠狠

愛淡了不離不棄多殘忍

你留下來的垃圾

我一天一天總會丟完的

我甚至真心真意的祝福

永恆在你的身上先發生

你還是要幸福

你千萬不要再招惹別人哭

所有錯誤從我這裏落幕

別跟著我

銘心 刻骨

你還是要幸福

我才能確定我還得很清楚

確定自己再也不會佔據

你的篇幅

明天 開始

這一切都結束還我鑰匙的備份

我覺得再見可以很單純

我甚至真心真意的祝福

永恆在你的身上先發生

你還是要幸福

你千萬不要再招惹別人哭

所有錯誤從我這裏落幕

別跟著我

銘心 刻骨

你還是要幸福

我才能確定我還得很清楚

確定自己再也不會佔據

你的篇幅

明天 開始

這一切都結束

你還是要幸福

你千萬不要再招惹別人哭

所有錯誤從我這裏落幕

別跟著我

銘心 刻骨

你如果很幸福

半夜的簡訊我就無需回覆

因為你的悲喜已經有了 容身之處

我也 能有 最純粹的孤獨

最孤獨的孤獨

Love u Hebe~

AUG: working life START!

07/08/2011

my working life started since 1st of AUG....

many things to learnt and memorize!!! i hope i can catch up fast enough to impress my senior and my managers... sob sob*

luckily i have a great senior and colleague that helps me alot. thank god for treating me so good. i will work harder and earn more for me and my family lor! EMM!

6 months to go and i will be promote! cant wait for it! hehe.

July the brand nouveau départ

Halo my beloved Blog~~ its been awhile i abandoned u~ i am so sorry~~ i came back to visit u again now baby~

Lots of things happened in this few months, good and bad all comes in together. Well, this is life, face it bitch(me)! Ups and down only will paint ur life with various of colors~

First,

i am graduated, like finally! OMG. i passed with flying colors this last semester! HELLO! i get DEAN list man!! In this freaking hardest last semester!! Not much ppl actually get dean list in the last semester and i get it!!! i am so happy!! (i tout i might be failed after i done my exam). Now i only wish that i can wait my Convocation and get my cert smoothly~~ i wana have a very big size DOMOKUN!!! Cant wait for it!! XD

Second,

although i am graduated.... but i am still jobless.... until now!!! i have been a rotten guy that sit in front of the lappie for month than a month lor!!! Others were like work for one month dy... and i am still here, blogging.... its not that i cant get any job offer, i rejected 3 job offers!!! Even Public bank i rejected!! OMG.... too arrogant?? nah... i prefer Kuantan job... so i can at least be with my two old dearest one here which is my dad and my mum for a while first.... haiz... fast fast give me a job offer la god~~ i wan start work lor~~ i dont want to slack around like a useless person...

hopefully i can get some calls TMR!!! *finger cross*

Third,

a really heart ache news for us last two weeks... my uncle just passed away... its a very very heart breaking news for all of us... especially my grandparents.... i saw them cried so hard... my heart scattered around... i never seen them crying before... and my mum, its been a long time my mum never cried in such a pain... she is a woman that i really look up to... she is a really strong woman... a woman that happy go lucky (sometimes when the mood come in angst, beware to take cover ya, must wear a protection!!) but that day, she cried, i cant do anything but to hug her tightly, and my dad too. Haiz.... life is unpredictable... but its kind of relieved cuz at least my uncle doesn't have to suffer from the pain anymore... hopefully he will have a peaceful and full of joy on the other side. we always love u.

After that, i guessed that my grandpa too exhausted, and caused him fainted last week... which is a shocked news for all of us again... i am really worried for my grandma... i love them so much.... i stayed with them when i was small... for so many years... they are precious for me... i really hopes that my grandparents will recover soon... grandpa!! get well soon!!! God pls let them recover soon!! T___T

Fourth,

since i am not working yet... so i joined PIKOM pc fair 2011 and be the team leader. Its a really good experience. i learn alot and i had lots of fun. i stayed alone that few days because my parents went to KT to visit my grandparents.

Fifth,

hello!! my braces are gone!!! i removed it dy!!! my and wan yi finally removed it dy!!! WUHU!!! celebration!! but we still have to wear the retainers for years to come. HAIZ.... But hey! i have a brand new gorgeous teeth to show my charming smile! (such a thick face that never feel shamed! u are ugly bitch!T___T).

Sixth,

finger cross u bird, Bird! Thanks for coming down to me from heaven, i will appreciate it alot! i wont ever waste what God send to me, which is u Bird! i will precious u like the best u ever had!

Guys, SERIOUSLY, appreciate every single second, stop complaining and enjoy the view of this world before its too late! (although nowadays the world become uglier la...but there still have some nice exquisite view out there!) carpe diem mate~~

thats all for now~~

Dear July, i wish it will a good start for me into brand new (working) world ya!!! Ciao~

Half

Omg.... i am really becoming the actor in the song of Della 叮当--一半 (half)...

The whole song is just writing everything about my thought and my feeling!!

It is a Law of Attraction cuz i always listen to this song...

Its a really hurtful and full of loneliness feeling inside it...

really a heart sore song ever...

am i too pessimistic?

or am i thinking too much?

Well, i am Pisces, a full of emotional and thought sign.

i can be tough in front of everyone, but deep inside, i am weaker than anyone...

i need water to survive to swim suavely,

i am drying up now...

struggling on the land of dried and loneliness,

luckily i still have guts and determination to crawl and hope to find a pond of water that suits me...

well, pisces, its about two fish right?

now its only left one,

for sure everything will be in a dull way,

everything is in grey,

is very sorrow and gloomy world it lives in...

thats y this song appeared to be the most suitable song for a single Pisces.

丁噹 《一半》

喝酒的伴(drinking companion)
一起看电影的伴(movies companion)
早午晚餐的那个伴(breakfast,lunch, dinner's companion)
朋友不能留得太晚(friends cant stay up too late)
明天要上班(cuz tmr still need to go for work)
唱k的伴(k session companion)
一起去旅行的伴(travel's companion)
听懂我的笑话的伴(the one that can understand my lame jokes)
我的生活(my life)
只差那个人就美满(left the person to fill in and it would it perfect)
快乐剩一人分享(happiness that no one to share)
快乐就只剩一半(happiness left half)
喝一碗汤(drink a bowl of soup)
心怎么都不够暖(heart still cant be warmed up)
这张被单 这张睡床(this mattress, this bed)
再舒服都觉得太宽(how comfortable will also feel too big)
噢噢~~
没人分享(no ones to share with)
幸福就只剩一半(happiness will only left half)
就算把日子都填满(no matter how pack my daily schedule is)

节日却提醒我孤单(those festivals will just reminds me that i am lonely)

没有想法(no thought)
有想法又能怎样(so what if i have thought?)
只能写部落格整晚(end up blogging whole night... [like what i did now!!! >.<]...)

几个留言安慰不了(few messages wont help anything)
心里的遗憾(the regretfulness inside the heart.)
没有负担原来也是种负担(no burden also consider as a burden)
自由多得让人心慌(because too much freedom makes us feel frightened.)
你羡慕我(u envy of my life)
那要不要跟我交换(then would u like to exchange with me?)

快乐剩一人分享(happiness that no one to share)
快乐就只剩一半(happiness left half)
喝一碗汤(drink a bowl of soup)
心怎么都不够暖(heart still cant be warmed up)
这张被单 这张睡床(this mattress, this bed)
再舒服都觉得太宽(how comfortable will also feel too big)
噢噢~~
没人分享(no ones to share with)
幸福就只剩一半(happiness will only left half)

努力把日子都填满(no matter how pack my daily schedule is)
别来提醒 我的孤单(dun come and reminds me, how lonely i am)

快乐剩一人分享(happiness that no one to share)
快乐就只剩一半(happiness left half)
喝一碗汤(drink a bowl of soup)
心怎么都不够暖(heart still cant be warmed up)

这张被单 这张睡床(this mattress, this bed)
再舒服都觉得太宽(how comfortable will also feel too big)
噢噢~~
没人分享(no ones to share with)
幸福就只剩一半(happiness will only left half)

就算把日子都填满(no matter how pack my daily schedule is)
没人知道 我多孤单(no ones know, how lonely i am)

well this song is full of emotion,

all i wish to all those singles out there is that,

stay strong! one day u will surely find someone that suits u!

dun have to be rush, cuz love dun come by rush and force!

dun give up just yet! have faith on love! good luck everyone!!

i am also waiting for my right one!! lets together pray to get a good companion la!! good luck to me too! haha

its late now, its time to say goodbye lor! ciao~~

Is time to move on!

Ppl were born to this universe,

Ppl will grow along with the environment,

Ppl will learned from the mistakes,

Ppl will change from what they learned,

Ppl will regret with what they've done,

Ppl will look back when they are old,

Ppl will "fly" to other universe when its time.

Well, this is life, human life cycle, ppl will never be the same always...

Since we know that, why we still want to invest our everything on other Ppl?

Ppl is the most insecure stuff that need the most expensive insurance to insure, but i think even the insurance hardly make us feel secure no matter how much u invest on it...

Even ourself, is hardly believe sometimes...

But from all the alternatives,

We, ourself, is the still the best to believed in.

Ntg is perfect,

Even u get 100% marks for exam, u still cant make ur parents feel enough.

Get used to it, faced it, be prepared for it,

Life is cruel, but Ppl are way more cruel,

Ppl wont be with us for the entire life,

Yes, we need them, but we need ourself more to survive, to live,

We live for no one but us.

Let the by gone be by gone.

Its time to let go and leave the past behind,

Store it in a box, put it aside, once in a while go check it wont harm anything,

Cuz its part of our story.

So its time to get ur ass off and MOVE ON,

Dont just live in the memories, hanging ourselves there.

U will missed alot of beautiful scene around u.

Well, its time to move on,

Going to hit my bed now,

And start my new day tmr with full of excitement!

(hope that MY NEW DREAM will be with me forever and will come true soon~)

NIGHTS MATE!!

CHEERS!!

Orz Orz!!

RAWR!!!!

finally i dropped a super heavy rock on me!!!

International Finance that killed me drastically since the beginning of the new year, the most crazy subject i ever had in my entire life!! and now i cast "u" be gone with the wind~~

although i dont think i done it perfectly, but at least i done my best la~~~

THX to YOU!!! u know who u are~ always gives me the strength and motivate me although always at the last minute la~~ but still gives me the power to sprint!! thank you~~

suddenly so into my WIFE's song, avril~~~

wish u were here~ lets rock avril!!!

I can be tough,
I can be strong,
But with you, It's not like that at all,

Theres a guy who gives a shit,
Behind this wall,
You just walk through it,

And I remember all those crazy thing you said,
You left them running through my head,
You're always there, you're everywhere,
But right now I wish you were here,

All those crazy things we did,
Didn't think about it just went with it,
You're always there, you're everywhere,
But right now I wish you were here,

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are,
It's who I am don't have to try hard,
We always say, Say like it is,
And the truth is that I really miss,

All those crazy thing you said,
You left them running through my head,
You're always there, you're everywhere,
But right now I wish you were here,

All those crazy things we did,
Didn't think about it just went with it,
You're always there, you're everywhere,
But right now I wish you were here,

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you,
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here,

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you,
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

No, I don't wanna let go,
I just wanna let you know,
That I never wanna let go,
Let go, Oh, Oh,

No, I don't wanna let go,
I just wanna let you know,
That I never wanna let go,
Let go, Let go, Let go...

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you,
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here,

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you,
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

HOW I WISH U WERE HERE BY MY SIDE!!! >.<

nah~~ i just shouting to the wall in my room on my own~~ haha.

dead on my feet

my mental and my spirit was dead on my feet after being questioning bout my words my trueness all this while... been cleaning and proving myself that i am just being honest and sincere with what i said... but it always bounce back to me with a shadow of doubting on me by the others... my big blue sky i used to have last time, being polluted by those nasty ugly rumors... i always try my best to give my all, but still i cant get my loves one trust on me... what can i do? dun trust me because i have a flirtatious look? dun judge by looking on the covers right?

been struggling for long time to dig my family trust on me... until now they still doubting on my ability and me myself... they hardly believe me.. what i do what i said will never bring any confidence to them... now i thought i can have my love one to believe me... i really hope that i can have someone to trust me... i am not going to stop my feet now... i will still try my best to prove that i am worth to trust... until the day i die i will still prove myself that i am not as useless as u guys thought i am... one day, there will be beyond the shadow of a doubt on me anymore!

although i am already dead on my feet... but others will just look down on me if i walk away like that. Trust me!!! i will show u one day and it will be sooner than u ever thought!!! cheers!!!

Nobody's Perfect

yea... i made mistakes, everyone made mistakes, is a part of growing up in our life.

it doesnt mean end of the world right? we deserved 2nd chance right? dont we? cant we have that chance to prove ourself that we learned the lesson and we trying to change it?

Nobody's perfect...

i might be cheating, i might be playing around, i might be hurting u, but i am still in learning progress back then... everyone being stupid before... we cant do things correctly unless we made stupid mistakes before... i've changed... i've grown... all i need is a chance to prove myself... i am not what i am before...

theres a song really suits me... Jessie J = Nobody's Perfect

When I'm nervous I have this thing yeah I talk too much
Sometimes I just can't shut the hell up
It's like I need to tell someone anyone who'll listen
And that's where I seem to fuck up, yeah
I forget about the consequences, for a minute there I lose my senses
And in the heat of the moment my mouth's starts going the words start flowing

But I never meant to hurt you, I know it's time that i learnt to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learnt , I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah
And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
Cause nobody's perfect, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobodys perfect

If i could turn back the hands of time
I swear I never would have crossed that line
I should of kept it between us but Jessie went and told the whole world how she's feeling and oh
So I sit and I realise with these tears falling from my eyes
I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever
Promise that I'm gonna try

But I never meant to hurt you, i know it's time that i learn to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learnt and I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah
And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
Cause nobody's perfect, no, no, no, no, no, no, no,nobody's perfect

Im Not a saint no not at all, but what I did it wasn't cool
But I swear that I'll never do that again to you
I'm not a saint, no not at all, but what I did it wasn't cool
but i swear that ill never do that again to you.
I hate that I let you down, and I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah
And I hate that I made you think that that the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
Cause nobody's perfect, no,
nobody's perfect...

THE LAST CHAPTER AS A STUDENT

its been a while.... cant believe is almost comes to an end dy... left one last month, and i am going to actually leave this jungle that teach me, trained me, guided me for this 3 years... tears are flowing in my eyes when think back last time, first time step into this jungle... i always thinks that "why am i end up in this hell?" and now... i actually feels hate to part with... i miss the friends here, i miss the place i grown here, i miss the route i always walk to class, i miss the canteen we gathered and gossip together, i miss the lecture room that makes us crazy together, i miss the smile, the laughter, we made for each other... we been through all this challenges together for 3 years, there always a up and down situation, angry, happy, sad, hate, envy, proud, we had it all together here...

when think about we are going to leave here, leave everyone soon... its our last chapter of here... the very last chapter as a student... the very last chapter to gather together with all frens for lunch dinner supper... everyone are going to leave soon... to write their own story... to build their own life... to build their own family... we going to separate soon... we are going to face the real world outside there by ourself... everything will be gone to zero...

life passed us by so fast, and u cant even realize how fast we been thru, how long our journey together... how crazy we been together... i wish i can grab it back and hold it tight once again...

well... i guess this is life... our job as a fulltime student already comes to an end... is time to change our thought as a worker, as an entrepreneur... if theres a chance, i would like to gather all of them, and have a great gathering together... i hope theres a chance for me to do so...

*wipe my tears and put a smile on my face* i will miss u all! =)

my dancing crew and others....

my course mate....

my kuantan mates....

my crazy mates~~

my dance crew

my class mate....

my first sem COMM II group mate...

my hiao mate 2.....

my jimui them....

theres alot more frens here... but i dun have the chance to takes photos with them... hopefully we can meet up again next time in the future... or maybe when the convocation period...

THANK YOU!!!!

THANKS FOR ACCOMPANY ME FOR THIS 3 YEARS!!

THANKS FOR GROWING ME UP!!!

THANKS FOR TOLERATING WITH MY CRAZINESS!!

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!!

my Duo performance with ah hsienz~

25/03/2011

a very short notice performance~~~ friday is the performance and i only being informed on monday... zzz... it was such a rush preparation to be made~

me and ah hsienz decided to take some choreograph and practice in these 2 days.( i am having 2 exams in this week!!!) and finally we decided to take Clap+What's My Name+Push+Purple Line combine in one song~~

(2 days of practices...)

Friday,

is the day, my stomach full with MORPH not BUTTERFLIES.. LOL... makes me nerve cracking! i am very scared without any full preparation... makes me feel insecure...

*dong DONG dong DONG* my heartbeats like a big hard bass drum...

*poof* DONE~

overall... i think i did my best, and came out not bad the result~~ haha! hope the audience loved it lor~~~

23th birthday!

12/03/2011 00.00am

Yes, i am officially 23 years born in this roller-coaster world. its been up and down and turn and twist and rolling and so on for 23 years! Old jor la~~~ see all my wrinkles so obvious on my forehead~~ hope i am still attractive to attract some bees towards me la~~ haha! XD

many celebration for me this year, i am so touch to be born with so much nice friends around me, thank you!! hugs !! although this year present is way much lesser than last year la~~ but everything they done for me is so meaningful for me which cant be bought with notes, and left a sweet memories in my heart never gone!

1st section,

11/03/2011

took the bus on 10th night, arrived KL at 11th morning, my packed schedule will be start soon~ here we go! have a short breakie with C and then 2nd breakie with my bro afte

r he fetch me at LRT station, which makes me waited him fo

r more than half hour! >.<''' and then went back home get some rest in da new house!! nice one!! XD after that went to One U to have a lunch at Robot Sushi and wandering around there alone, and bumps up with a fren Jason, we have a chat, i mean quite long one~ until my Ji Mui them reached One U. thx alot for Karen (the sick girl, pity her...), Siew Wee, and Col Yee came to One U which is so damn far from ur place just to celebrate for me! Gam Dong!!! T___T

Went for a K session at Neway, took lots of photos and ate lots of junk foods~ i am getting fatter!!! >.<

after that we went to Sunway Giza to have our dinner~ at FullHouse~~ so many ppl on that day!!! but nvm~~ more lively and more cheerful ma~~ haha~~ a simple dinner with lots of joys and sweet memoirs across my heart.

my birthday cake~~ nice nice~~

top, from left: Col yee, Siew Wee

btm, from left: Karen, Me

after that we went to Old Town at Central point to have a drink before we all heading back to our own home~ sweet sweet and warmth celebration i had on that night!!

section 2:

on the 12/03/2011, i went back to Kuantan with my Bro, went back to visit my parents~~ cant wait to meet them! miss them so much!! and i miss my bed too!!! XD

when i reached home, i can feel that my parents are actually very happy to see us. yea, i should come back often once i have times. i said it and i will do it! erm! on that night, we went to many restaurant but all fullhouse, so at last we went to E&E to have a family dinner~~ i am happy with it~~ hehe! i love my family!

section 3:

on the same night, vivy them ask me to have a yc session with them~~ another cake session begins!! ^^ we went to Santai to have a drinks there, and they brought me a peanut cake! a mouth watering cake!! nice one!!! thx ya~ they present me a T-shirt that wrote, "I AM NOT MONKEY, BUT I LOVE BANANAS" which is so suit me!!! cuz i loved BANANAS! XD. thx vivy for so know me!! hugs~~

from left: vivy, me, ping

section 4:

13/03/2011 that night i went for a yc session with wilson at old town~ another cake he present me!! lolx~~we have a long chat about the "seafood" around KUANTAN area~ haha~

section 5:

14/03/2011 i went back to KL, on the way back raining heavily again~~~ Hmph!! C makes me wait for 20 minutes again lor!! Hmph!! we went to eat at a place which their dishes is quite nice geh~~ thx for bringing me there~ hehe! after that, another surprise cake came out for me again! haha! thank u thank u~~~ and thx for the present ya!!! i am sure it takes long time to made it!! arigatou gozaimasu! hehe!

section 6:

15/03/2011 finally i have chance to YC with the super busy Prime minister mr Calvin at Paparich. haha~~ he treated me that night as a birthday present wo~~ the whole night was just listening to his story wo~ its the best time to catch up with his interesting story~ and he promise me to bring me to Italianese for desserts! hehe

section 7:

18/03/2011 back to UUM, and today is the day we planned to go have a gathering at DANOK Thailand for a dinner. but in the morning another group of my fren, Vchin them brought me to Jitra for a lunch at PizzaHut, its been a long time din catch up with them~~ thanks for treat me lunch ya! and then we went to Guardian to mess around once again~ used their tester, tried this and that, we end up buy ntg from there, ops! we bought a pack of tissue cost rm1. XD after that we went to Alor Setar for a K session~~ we only sang for an hour plus, i am so sorry to them cuz i cant stay long as i have another gathering needs to be attend. i am so thankful and sorry once again for rushing the plan... T___T

Ok, ready to get mumbling by the other group... which is my bestie.... WAN YI, SHU ZHEN them... ready to get scold by them.... haiz~~ we went to a place name Waterview Restaurant at Danok!! the place is so nice~~ the scenery, the view, the environment, its a very relax and romantic place to dine in. its so funny when it comes to communicate with the locals there, its like a duck talking to a chicken. haha! at last we ordered many dishes, the dishes is ok, but the amount is totally.... OMG... i should have record down the scene where everyone grabbing the food! once again it happened, like when we went to dinner at the Springfest! so funny~~ after that, a surprise cake once again~~ a cake from Thailand!! first time in my life celebrating my birthday aboard! i am very surprised and so happy, although i dono what it wrote on the cake la~~ hahaha!!! (not very nice only) but i appreciated it!!! hugs~~~

Shandy with Vchin them~~

the view of Waterview Restaurant~

the girls~~ from front: Sue Ann, Shu Zhen, Yee Kuan, Wan Yi, 408~

the guys, from left: Me, Ryan, Jia Jun, Sheng Yee, YY

My first Cake From Thailand~

i dono what it wrote on it. XD

me with the cake~~ wuhu~~

Thx everyone!!! hugs!!

this is it~ my 23th birthday celebration from all my family and frens~ i love them all!!! thanks once again!!! hehe~~ and thanks to those who wished me and present me!!! i loved it!! i love u guys~~ and i hope that my wish will fulfill soon! (i wish for Japan that can recover ASAP, and may all the victims rest in peace on the other side... god bless u all... ) Cheers for everyone out there, be grateful. ^^

my last springfest in UUM

25/02/2011

a tiring day after a long trip to penang yesterday with my sar po, wan yi. a very looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong story telling with her, very tiring but it was a fun trip with her, as usual~ we spend our whole day mostly hangin around the gurney mall... and i am her maid that accompany her walk here and there... i wish to shop and my hands are itchy!!!! but.... i need to be live like a normal life guy this time.... control my shopaholic side of me!!! =(

all the stuff are so drooling.... arg~~~ when only i can shop without looking at the price tag neh.... wuwu...

and today... is the last time i can possibly attend the event which held in campus... the MPP SPRINGFEST in UUM... so much memoirs will be stayed here and i will bury it under the stage there... i will missed it alot... although the event always left me with 40% satisfaction only la~ but its from the committees hardwork and the passion they put in it, appreciate it.(cuz i am one of it the previous event leader. XD) that night our theme is black and white( i tout wana be a colourful and very eyesore colours geh... but... nvm la~~) we went there earlier to take photos~~ a simple but funny photoshoot. took lots of pictures! but feels like its not enough... maybe i am starting to miss them already... sob sob... the event was okay... my main point of joining this event is just to celebrate with them my best mate and i might not having the chance to attend this kind of gathering anymore... grab the chance tightly! erm!!! the night was fun, they eat like those barbarian~~ a complete chicken without head are gone into dust in just few seconds... i am staring at them striving to be first and fearing to be last.... the scene is damn funny!!

my friends~~

my kuantan friends in same form6 school.

this is it~ 10 of us~ i am gonna miss them sooo much~~

T__T

end of FEB

24/02/2011

so fast time passed by~~~ is just like u just finish sang a song and u passed 2 months of 2011 dy...

i wish i can have a very beautiful song to sing throughout the year~~ this two months was a very very difficult and confusing path to go through. i lost my ways so many times, i lost myself, keep trying and trying to escape so many times, but still i keep telling myself "keep urself together and u will be fine" and i am still trying now, slightly better, i think. ^^

start from zero, sounds like easy, but its hard when at first u have like everything u need, but in sudden all gone, and u drop to the bottom, u have to climb up once again, by urself. sometimes i do feel like giving up, but i realize i still have things i cant put down, my family and my friends. the older i am, the more important family and frens i realize. i love u daddy and mummy, brother, soulmate, buddy, my "girlfren", and my newly met frens~~ u guys do help me alot. i love u guys~

met a killer lecturer recently, its really tension when enter his class, but he do recognize me. is it good or bad, it depends how i think and how i take it. i take it good cuz i think that he do really take attention on me, thats really a good sign to start my new life. i promise i will do well, sir. many subjects that needs my lead to be done, somehow is very stressful but is the right chance for me to learn, i am going to outside messy world soon, is time for me to be prepared. good luck to u BRYANT CHUA! i know u can work it out somehow~

financial, life, academic, all trying to push me to the edge of the hills, but lucky i do have some strength to push it back and i do have a parachute that always catch me whenever i fall. i hope the parachute is in a good condition la, no hole or any defective la. XD

there is a song i really like and motivated always~~ pink, f*ckin perfect~

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!

Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty please, if you ever feel like you're nothing
You are perfect to me....

thats all for now~~~ see ya later~~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2011

happy chinese new year~~~ may u have a blissful one with ur family and friends~~

this is what i wished for others, and of cuz myself. i have a blissful, special celebration with my family. i wish my family all healthy, wealthy, and happy.

reunion lunch~~

my daddy's elder brother famliy with

my family.

there's nothing much to do though in this new year, missed out alot gathering with old frens as they all went back for exam... sad... hope to see u guys soon!! XD

i think i have grown up a little bit, my thinking become wiser and wider than i used to be. my car, cynthia, gone... Rest in Pieces.... total lost... haiz... i miss her so much... many ppl ask me whether will i angry my brother or scold him, yea sure i will scold him and angry him, but its not because of the car, is what he made my parents worried for him. that makes me very angry, but things happened, its not what he wished for, so what is passed is passed, hope learned the lesson.... i wont keep it in the heart so long as i cant bring it back to life again, its only good to wash away and stays as memories. (although i like to mumbling sometimes, but just let me lor for this while, i love my cynthia u know??!!) if was last time that immature me, sure i will made the whole house in a mess, and show all the anger all over the family members! but i didnt this time, i swallowed it myself and digest it with a smile. so happy i can do it! XD

about my TOSHIBA, haiz... same... put there as a wasted junk.... aiks.... i am speechless... but, suan le ba.... i dun wan to expect too much la~ let it be la... the more i expect, i wished for, all sure comes with an empty echoes... so learn to live with what i have now.

life is all about how to survive in this SURVIVAL GAME. and i am going to be the last one standing! XD

i am gonna start my super new life style in this last semester in my university life. walk to class, do my own laundry, take buses to outside, and more challenges to meet up with. but what the hell, do i look like i care?! i will get my own freaking life! XD

update to u guys soon~

is almost 10pm!

23/01/2011

its almost 10pm!!! the day almost comes to an end! and i did nothing today!! what the hell.... supposed to read some books, sketch some ideas... but in the end~ nap for 2 hours! zzz

start tmr! must at least start my first chap of the important subject! i dun want to have any empty talk anymore! erm!!! (cross my heart! XD)

owh! by the way, wana jot down some bull shit news from THE NORTHERN UNIVERSITY OF MALAY-SIA, sounds so grand, but inside it is like a .... erm.... what? words cant describe it! LOL

requirements for car sticker, 80 points for SIRA(activities), need surat aku-janji, passenger insurans, and blah blah blah! last sem, also have to worried and so troublesome! even the loan PTPTN till now haven't bank in to us yet... how am i going to survive for the next few days!!!!??? i am officially broke!!! my wallet burned into ashes! what a sad story of mine... *sob sob*

but whatever, i am still alive, i am still breathing, and everyone around me are still fine, especially YOU! then i will be fine, i will try to look more optimistic! be a positive guy, not gooey one anymore. do what i have to do, do anything i like b4 i have the chance to regret about it! yeah baby!! ciao~~ wait i back home, its time for me to share the foods and beverages i tasted b4~~~ the line here sucks~~ cant upload~~ wait for me~~~ stay tune~

last sem in uum

wuhu~~~ 13/01/2011

i am the first one back UUM this jungle among my frens(except wan yi.... >.<)

when back here, i dun feel bad at all, its not like the previous feeling i had, i hate it and i just have a feeling that screw this uni, but this time i back with a calm and peaceful heart. what a weird new me~~ maybe i grown up, who knows~

whole campus is like a haunted mansion or something like that, no living creature here except our grand grand grand grand grand grand..... parents(monkeys) all around the place!!! they break into our store room!!! i even went to wan yi's block to help her scare away those monkeys! what a hero am i~~ although i just help kick the door to scared them off~~ haha! XD

after the second day i reached only i finish my packing and cleaned the room. phew tired~

ok, tmr start to do my plan! learn some sketching of interior architecture~ and read some books~~ and exercise!!

many ppl said i have changed, i hope i changed into a better one, mature is not a bad stuff, makes me more wise nowadays~ gah yao gah yao!! do our best ya!!! i promise YOU i will be better than i ever been ,cuz i wana have a better future!!!

B010111T

LIVE with no regrets...LOVE with no limits

life is too short for us to worry so many things in the same time. So why dun we start to do what we feel we want to, instead of guessing something that is not going to give any answer by sitting there looking down on tomorrow.

doubt about the decision we made wont give us any good, trust and have faith with it~~ live our life to the fullest!! although things not always goes our way, but dun just trying to look back and stay behind, GOD is creating something more interesting ahead us, way much better than what we have lost, sometimes letting go something good is not bad enough, cuz we might get something more awesome! XD

i know i am gooey sometimes, like what my soulmate always make fun of me, its time for me to grow up and be mature to look things in a better way and positive way. be grateful and appreciate all the things i have now and all the person around me now. daddy and mommy and brother, i am sorry for what i have done all this while, i might not showing that i love u guys so much in front of u guys, but deep inside my heart, i love u guys the most!!

slogan of the year, BE GRATEFUL WITH WHAT WE HAVE NOW!

2011~~

new year lor, 2011!!

say hello to goodbye to 2010, and welcome 2011!!

lots and lots of things happened passed few days b4 2011, its like a dream~~ that passed in a blink of eye. i am 23 dy lor!!!! hehe XD

on this new year 2011, 1st of jan, 00:00 am, god sent me a present. a great one!!! the best one, the special one!!! most valuable one!!!

and that is i am still alive and i am living in happily healthy life with alots of new hopes!! new dreams!! new journey!!! no more jakun~~~

ok, start running my plans! first, be low profile as possible! (deleted almost 400 plus ppl lor~~ yesh!!)

next, start to clean my room, and rearrange my stuff~~( wan new year lor~~~)

after that, study things about my interior~~ hehe!!! XD (need to be very hardwork!!)

and most important one, is treat ma love one the best!!! give the best!!

be honest, trust, and sincere!

finger cross for everything, run smoothly this year, and yet still, stay true to myself~ XD

gambateh!!!

B20110101T THE NEW CODE FOR MY LIFE. ^^